of Alcohol. I drank every day for over 15 years. Quite heavily. Always at night though. I needed it to help me sleep partly. I have some of the most severe insomnia that exists. Then I got into a serious bi-polar depression and started all day drinking. Wake up - drink - sleep. Wake up - drink - sleep. Wake up - drink - sleep.
I got the shakes, tremors, the sweats, the everything. I couldn't browse the web because I was shaking so bad I couldn't place the mouse over the proper tab or button. I said enough was enough and voluntarily checked into a week long in-patient and detoxed.
I figured I'd detox then go back to just night drinking. But a switch flipped and I wanted to stay clean. I'm in an outpatient program that lasts 2 months or so to help with that. Not drinking has been pretty easy so far besides the first 2 days, but there will come a day when things are so bad a drink will seem like the only answer. That will be the true test.
The doctor said the medications for bi-polar depression will not work properly while drinking and to stay clean for months and then we will know how they work. So that is the plan. I can't wait to feel the difference.
To anybody here who has or is suffering from substance abuse there is a way out.
Now I'm breaking the rules. They say not to fraternize with people in your program, whether in-patient or out-patient. But I met a girl at in-patient, which is over now, and we are going out. So technically not breaking the rules. She is 26 and I'm 41. What could possibly go wrong?