I personally dont think i have a self esteem problem.. while it does get a bit disheartening to get rejected a 103 times in 1999... (well i will blame it on those nerdy glasses) but still.. a thing that needs to be rectified.
I know how to dress its not like I dress like a slob, I am quite neat in what i wear. While I dont wear my "best" clothes to school, i do wear casual stuff to school, things I am comfrtable with. I am in no mood to wear something fashionable just to prove a point with the women.. while most guys at my school do that.. i dont know what their sucess ratio is (plus it doesnt help cause i am in a school with a majority of armenians - they only date armenians, hispanic girls will date white or hispanic... most white girls at school will date only white.. so I am stuck in between a rock and a hard place.
As for money, while i may not have much, i have enough. I have enough to buy myself nice stuff when needed. I ride a motorcycle to school ( i got it partly for the commute to school and partly cause i wanted an image change at school - a geek/nerd who is a bad boy look) and I drive a car (a not cool 1994 toyota tercel). I also drive my brothers BMW sometimes...and its keys are on my keybunch so people who have seen my keybunch do go "hey you have a bmw.. nice".. but that never gets me there.. its not like i am out there telling i have a BMW.. while i do drive it often, its not my daily commuter car.
My girlfriends have helped me a lot in trying to get me girls.. somehow they arent biting.. when i got my last pair of glasses, i had a girls input into it.. while it was remarkably close to the previous pair in frame shape it was a better frame. I dont wear contact often ( i have had a cataract when i was young so need to have some sort of vision correction lens in front - contacts mean i have to carry a reading glass - bifocal contacts are still too expensive but i might try some later this year). I do have an infection that started by using contacts, so my doctor said i should stop, so i did.. but i personally prefer glasses. Anyway my friends have helped me get fashionable.. I dont necessarily wear branded clothes with corporate logo's on the shirt (unless its adidas, nike, reebok) and I am quite the kind who gets nice stuff. My girlfriend chante and I recently went shopping for clothes for me.. and we got so me really cool clothes that fit me and make me look really good. But that still doesnt help..
Deep down i am viewed in a different way by most women my age. Older women seem to appreciate things about me, and they have said that once a girl realises the gold mine in me will get attached so fast that I wont be able to get her off. SOmehow I have to agree on it, women my age arent exactly mature enough on my level atleast. Very few that i have seen on my level that are worth looking into. So in the mean time i have decided to layoff for a while and if something comes by take it. I also put some criteria on the kind of women i want only because if women can have a list of things they want in a man, so can us men. so far most people who fit the criteria are either married, are involved with someone else or too old for me.
TGG