Originally posted by: fire400
Originally posted by: fire400
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Okay, back, so anyway... here's your story -
There was this girl who was sitting by a colorful sprinkling water fountain at the mall, and she was crying because her boyfriend had just stood her up for her best friend; her now ex-b/f and her former best friend were out of her life. It was hard for her, it seemed like it was the end of anything good anymore.
So I asked her if everything was okay, she said "yes," but kept crying like nothing was going to get better for her. I put my arm around her back to help escort her from the place she was at because there was a security guard who kept staring at her, like she was going to kick her out of the mall? It was priority to get her out of the place where she had lost her two best friends before her sadness turned into depression.
We just sat down and talked at a park. I asked if she had a car, she said yes, but then told me her ex-b/f had picked her up. So it would have been a tripple disaster instead of a double, if she were stranded there - the bus would have been the only thing to help her get home. I offered to take her out to eat if she was hungry, but I didn't want to make it look like I was taking advantage of her, then I asked if she just wanted to get dropped off at home. I gave her my number, and we haven't heard from her since. Her number, I didn't bother since it was her choice to respond to my offer in the first place of handing mines out first, but I didin't expect anything from her. When she got out of the car, she didn't even look at me, just the words, "thank you so much." After that, I never heard from her since...
There was a dance and she showed up without a date. I was there also, and my date ended up deciding not to come because she met some guy at the gas station on the way to where the dance was held at. Age limit was +18 - 30, formal. But some 16/17 (desperate?) year old girls got in with fake I.D.'s, girls I knew from my old high school when they were freshman. Anyway, I knew my date had put the ice on me because my friend was getting as at the same time and saw the whole thing. I thought he was joking, but he showed up too and challenged me to wait for her, telling me that I shouldn't waste my time waiting and just enjoy the dance. I was pretty upset, because it seemed I had everything planned out...? While at the party, my brother and friends were rounding up PC gamers to play War3_DOTA to challenge on the European side. I just said 'no thanks' and left to go sit outside, my friends words running through my head, questioning if it was true. He even assured me that he would never lie to me, and he has proven it thus far, because my date actually showed up in a red convertable with her "dream guy." She was smiling and laughing. When she walked by me, her arms clung tight to her new 'boy friend' and all she said was "...." and looked away. I just closed my eyes for a second, trying to absorb this all, I had liked this girl I asked to be my date so much. And it was like a brick without color, everything from there seemed to be black and white, I couldn't even blink without tears coming down my face. I got up and started walking, and I recognized the girl I had taken home from the mall was following up with me calling my name? She said that my friend told her everything and that she was sorry for what had just happened. I couldn't believe it but at the same time my night seemed like such a mess. My back was still turned to her because I didn't want her to see my tears. Then she said, "you're probably not going to that video game party with your brother and friends are you?" I just shook my head and kept walking, people outside left and right were looking at me but I didn't really care. I wasn't expecting this girl to return any favors after I got a flashback of her not even looking at me when I dropped her off that particular day she lossed her b/f and best friend. I just sat in my car trying to figure out where I was, and then that girl knocked on my shotgun window, so I unlocked the door for her. After she got in, I didn't even want to look at her even though she was dressed up and looked very nice, my feelings felt flushed down the Mississippi, it was hard enough trying to not think about the things I've done for the 'missing date' I just got burned by that night. I'm not sure if this girl who was now in shotgun just talked me into giving her a ride, but I did offered anway because it was the only thing I could think of doing while trying my best not to forget the dance and everything I had to swallow with it. When we got to her house, she said that she knows how I feel and asked if she could treat me out to dinner if I didn't mind. There was nothing I wanted in the world other than to not think about my old crush and the words that echoed through my head from when my friend seemed like a news reporter phoning me on the as much exact detail when she decided to shift plans to get things going with another guy. But I said "yeah" anyway, considering she went out of her way to try and comfort me when she could have been having a good time at the dance, then later said that she'd rather be elsewhere than the dance anyway. This time she left me her phone number when I finally dropped her off after dinner, and I didn't even bother giving her mine which I was hoping she had lost by now. It was funny, because when I tried to pay for dinner, she had paid the waiter in advance with the excuse "I need to use the restroom.. I'll be back." But I barely noticed it that night since I was still feeling so beat up.
After a week later, finals was also over, I thought about everthing that had happened within the past week. I just realized I was feeling better. I decided to call her and we talked and spent time together, shared stories of desperate times and fun times and old times and times of laughter. We were transferring schools after our 2nd semister was over, it seemed like a perfect coincidence? Not to mention how broke we were of all the times we hung out and did things for each other, but from the somewhere in the middle of us being closer than ever, I thought that day would continue without end... was I more wrong than anything? Our chemistries and final words were just good bye, we couldn't believe it. We made some promises and never heard from or saw each other again, since.
It was fast, but almost seemed too perfect of a time to be true. Most of my other closest friends got married and moved away. Some of my buddies dropped out of college to get more hours and party more. They had a good amount of money from decent jobs, and they even told me they would regret dropping out some time down the road. It was surreal, they were running computer games on server technology equipment. Then ofcourse they had very nice cars. I didn't seem any academically smarter than they were, but I knew that school priorities was a first come or last come basis, you either showed up ten minutes early to the exams or you were late and failed the class, it was a headache almost, but things seemed to keep piling up...
Anyway, summer-break... Up until now was probably some of the loneliest days I've ever spent in my life. And exams thus far and my job all seemed like it was the only thing I was made for, to serve for credentials and to earn the dollar - I couldn't take it anymore, but I have learned from my college preperation classes in high school up until now,
"That you either you accepted something, or you changed it."
So here's my poem,
?Finale of Tomorrow?
Outlying days,
December far away?
But it is here,
So sudden and near,
Nightfall will not come late tonight,
Throughout dusk ?till dawn and beneath the stars,
I?ll remember you, I?ll dream of us, somehow life will feel alright,
Was it my loneliness? Those broken memories, like shattered shards?
In the distance over a glistening lagoon,
We could feel the cool wintry breeze,
The captivating skies of a silent sea?s monsoon,
Upon an astonishing cape far across the oceanic blue,
I could remember us standing beneath this firm oak tree,
We shared the seasons and captured them with ease,
I sat here all alone,
Every thought of reliving a hope,
Recollecting joys and sorrows,
Moments beyond unrest affinity,
Should we hold on or forget with haste?
We can dream of coming home to family from time whenever,
Who is left in this world to cling to and embrace?
So it seems our life like this might carry on forever?
Devoid of testimony are these glorious final eras,
Our battles tomorrow subsist through horizons untouched,
The refusal of seeing our selves too desperate and lonely,
Did our infinite eternity already seem too much?
Our footsteps we left behind,
So what without reason should we precede our every move?
Rather a destiny of expression from episode to emptiness?
Of those notions held back from worried ways?
The words and feelings that cannot fade,
Those thoughts and memories together we made,
Forevermore can we look and learn,
Must we refuse to foresee this stance?
A pleasant fragrance without a glance,
Our own fate to nurture faith,
Far and absent within the heart,
Trust and patience not depart,
Each others hands we clutched so tight,
Seconds away it was firm in sight,
In the end a different surprise,
Forevermore our cares to confide,
I lived for you and all that was true,
With splits in the road we ventured away,
Separate ways for warmer days?
Pondering thoughts of endless clue,
Heartfelt sorrows to rearrange?
The anticipation to picture and explore,
Are there dreams and passions to exchange?
A reality beyond deep concern,
Yet we realize another discern,
Good things yet to reach our shore?
Pursuing happiness through time and space,
My mind to mend and piece together,
Those breathless moments through each door,
Lucid paths and exhilarating adventures,
Of the times that we could now and later remember,
May we never forget the things we shared?
Though we accept with open arms,
On wings we hold a gifted future,
Those moments we felt a tiny glow,
Were times a gentle shine had touched our soul,
Today's wishes may become our dreams,
Tonight we hope for love it seems,
So may everyday we summon grace,
That tomorrow beyond this moonlit place,
Exonerating coldness and tenderness anew,
Of those hidden tears so hard to show,
Perhaps someday together we will know,
Our lives everlastingly we can still make change,
That from all the days and nights we tread,
To never lose hope or drift off course,
But to always stay true in our journeys ahead?