Been a hard couple days. My cat got very sick suddenly and I had to have her put down on the 24th. I knew this day was coming at some point given her age but it still feels like it happened so fast and unexpected and like it's not real. 17 years, almost 18. She was born November 30 2004. She had kidney issues which is very common in Siamese cats and I had her on the kidney vet food and everything was fine for a good year or so but as of a few days ago she stopped eating or drinking and became very weak and was barely able to walk. She was so pittiful, but still trying to jump on my lap or on the bed, or off the bed, but I had to help her.
Vet gave her fluids and some wet food but she did not bounce back and only got worse the next day so when I went for the followup I made the difficult decision. Was a really emotional moment, even the vet was crying as she bred her and it was the last remaining cat from the litter that she knows of as some went out of town. The mom and dad lived at the vet office but past away years back.
The house is just not the same. My family has been a good support and I've been mostly out of the house with them since it's when I'm here that it hits hard. Even get anxiety. Night time is the worse. I did get a decent sleep last night though after taking a sleep pill so will do the same again tonight. 3rd night without her. I never figured it would be this hard on me to lose my cat, but when I think about it, I've had almost half my life with her. I'm 36 and she was almost 18. She had her quirks, some things that would annoy me and I would get mad but I feel bad for getting mad now, and would do anything right now to clean up some puke off the couch or bed with her here.
This is a recent pic of her before she was sick. I loved this pic since it was so hard to take a selfie with her as she'd get so annoyed haha. But in this one she even closed her eyes.
Going to wait until I get over this and probably get another cat. Technically I should maybe get 2 so they keep each other company when I'm on my 12h shifts but not sure if I actually want 2. So I need to think it over more. But I miss the night time cuddles. Even working from home is going to be so odd now. So much emptiness.