To let someone you love go.
Loneliness is .. .. .. . Something I really do not want to get used to ... .. again.
But I know its best.
And I know .. . I will just fail.
At life.
At best I'll be a gear in a cog, doing help desk/techsupport for "users" who can't (or at least amuse me/give me something to do/are just being Too kind to me by allowing me to have a postion in the company cause I was the only one who (liked/love/enbraced/understood[or could read white pages: rtfm] and... .. well now... they are WAY ahead of me.. {m$F'n secrets and passcodes}
so... Time to do Night school for CCNA etc... {even though I telnet'd into the cisco vpn box yadda, yadda, static Ip and all that jive.. with NO training... .. and now its T1 time {I even grounded the box... ! i feel SO special!. //*actually really it did feel good(cause im a dumb ass)}*//
I suck at life. Oh, well huh. I'd Cry I river, but I'm a desert. The only thing I have felt really good about, in a LONG time about was kicking a equil lv Taruan warriors ass , Twice (once with my main 2h'r, rematch... with my shield and weak 1h in front a sexy Night elve, whom is still My dear friend...)
Man.. it sucks being geek, that LOVES technology, but is too stupid to code or truely understand and use *nix. ... And I can't afford a powerbook #with a wacom, .... {like that would make me smarter} alllowing me to regeritate some unconsciouse $hit I engulfed from adult swim or one of the countless games I've played since I got a Nintendo, to sega to every thing I could buy (i missed the Turbografx, and the other lamers (but I wanted them)
Can't fix Stupid. Forgive me.
Just a rant. I'm a geek. I'll survive. Too bad I hate sports (madden), love playing Music though... .. but I'd rather replay Halo than chase a rock'n roll pipe dream, knowing 5 hrs aday playing ... and some ordasidy //*?cant spell? .. and I HATE Java*// to music'ly communicate anything...
I am blue today. Sorry. just how I feel. Good bye.
{*starcraft sound* FIRE it up. ... Hang one boys, where in for a rough one*}
Loneliness is .. .. .. . Something I really do not want to get used to ... .. again.
But I know its best.
And I know .. . I will just fail.
At life.
At best I'll be a gear in a cog, doing help desk/techsupport for "users" who can't (or at least amuse me/give me something to do/are just being Too kind to me by allowing me to have a postion in the company cause I was the only one who (liked/love/enbraced/understood[or could read white pages: rtfm] and... .. well now... they are WAY ahead of me.. {m$F'n secrets and passcodes}
so... Time to do Night school for CCNA etc... {even though I telnet'd into the cisco vpn box yadda, yadda, static Ip and all that jive.. with NO training... .. and now its T1 time {I even grounded the box... ! i feel SO special!. //*actually really it did feel good(cause im a dumb ass)}*//
I suck at life. Oh, well huh. I'd Cry I river, but I'm a desert. The only thing I have felt really good about, in a LONG time about was kicking a equil lv Taruan warriors ass , Twice (once with my main 2h'r, rematch... with my shield and weak 1h in front a sexy Night elve, whom is still My dear friend...)
Man.. it sucks being geek, that LOVES technology, but is too stupid to code or truely understand and use *nix. ... And I can't afford a powerbook #with a wacom, .... {like that would make me smarter} alllowing me to regeritate some unconsciouse $hit I engulfed from adult swim or one of the countless games I've played since I got a Nintendo, to sega to every thing I could buy (i missed the Turbografx, and the other lamers (but I wanted them)
Can't fix Stupid. Forgive me.
Just a rant. I'm a geek. I'll survive. Too bad I hate sports (madden), love playing Music though... .. but I'd rather replay Halo than chase a rock'n roll pipe dream, knowing 5 hrs aday playing ... and some ordasidy //*?cant spell? .. and I HATE Java*// to music'ly communicate anything...
I am blue today. Sorry. just how I feel. Good bye.
{*starcraft sound* FIRE it up. ... Hang one boys, where in for a rough one*}