Essay I wrote for not attending senior prom...

[idNut]

I wrote this essay when my librarians asked me why I wasn't going to prom. They told me to write an essay (joking) but I took it seriously to humor them and to try and prove a point. Now I want all you to know that I really respect a lot of your opinions here which is why I honestly am offended when people disrespect me on here. I truly had to resist posting this here because I knew every reply would be negative and telling me that I'm stupid and that I know nothing. Right now I just don't care. I want to hear all of your opinions because if you like it, then that means something to me because this forum is definitely not cheap on compliments.

Well, here it is in .PDF format. I realize it may need some revisions but this is it.

Promenade

 

[gopunk]

my opinion is... you are not all alone in the world, as you might think... there are tons of other angstful teenagers who think they so smart for being anti-social

and just because you can predict a response, doesn't mean it's wrong or that you've got it all figured out

 

[Dowfen]

Somewhere between "my misanthropy that roots deeper than even life's own origins" and "having no female friends" I stopped reading.

Other than that, it was a real slam dunk.

 

[Konigin]

Very dramatic.

 

[crawford]

Not trying to be a dick..... but you seem like some kind of psycho from reading that paper.

 

[isekii]

Originally posted by: crawford
Not trying to be a dick..... but you seem like some kind of psycho from reading that paper.

We shall refer to him as "Dakness" from now on

 

[FrogDog]

So have you set a date yet for the suicide, or are you just going to play it by ear?

Edit - Seriously though (. . . .) I once was like you (just take it down about 20 notches), and then I grew up. Sorry, but it'll happen to you too.

 

[NoReMoRsE]

Your writing is eloquent. I commend you and honour your decision.

 

[KevinF]

It's a very well written essay, and most of the point's you make are true. However, it seems to me, at least, that the real reason you're not going to the prom is just because of a self-image problem. Perhaps it's too late for high school, but you need some confidence, you need to get ahold of yourself so you don't go through college alienating everyone of the opposite sex.

 

[Supertastic Fool]

Originally posted by: FrogDog
So have you set a date yet for the suicide, or are you just going to play it by ear?

Edit - Seriously though (. . . .) I once was like you (just take it down about 20 notches), and then I grew up. Sorry, but it'll happen to you too.

how bout um, tomarrow, i didnt read it because im to lazy to d/l adobe on this comp haha

 

[hdeck]

your life must suck. i hope it gets better for you.

 

[Supertastic Fool]

Oh btw, your self image is how everyone else sees you also, if you see yourself as fun and cool to hang out with, and you are in semi-decent shape then you are like 75% of the other guys in this world.

 

[Cuda1447]

I didn't go to my senior prom either. Skipped it to go hang out with some friends and have a good night instead of spending tons of money on a crappy souped up dance. I didn't miss a thing.

 

[fyleow]

So you're a loser with no friends and you're bitter that you can't get a date for prom.

Did I miss anything?

 

[FrogDog]

Originally posted by: Cuda1447
I didn't go to my senior prom either. Skipped it to go hang out with some friends and have a good night instead of spending tons of money on a crappy souped up dance. I didn't miss a thing.

Very acceptable reason to skip the prom. I skipped it and did shit-all - and I regret it, just like idNut soon will.

 

[SWScorch]

well....

you write pretty well. It's still pretty rough (I assume if it were an official essay you would edit it some more) and you have a way with words, or else you just decided to raid a thesaurus. As for the subject matter, I'm not going to touch that. I'm not going to judge you, but you seem very bitter. Oh, and I like your use of "chucklehead"

 

[yllus]

Yeesh, angsty teen at 12 o'clock. You know idNut, I think you're a pretty cool guy. Anyone who worships id like you do is alright in my books. So take it the right way when I say you need to motherf'ing chill out!

Going to my prom was one of the absolute most fun things I ever did in high school. Who cares about the pressure of taking a girl. Go stag with at least two of your buddies (who must also be going stag), enjoy the crappy food and drink and sit around for a few hours in a suit and tie. Take some pictures. Hit the dance floor, which I assure you will probably be too crowded and dark for people to stare at you and critique your moves.

I know you wrote all that with a tinge of irony, but it's like you're getting to the point where you're taking being dark and depressed as a serious thing. Lighten up dude.

 

[idNut]

Originally posted by: FrogDog
So have you set a date yet for the suicide, or are you just going to play it by ear?

Edit - Seriously though (. . . .) I once was like you (just take it down about 20 notches), and then I grew up. Sorry, but it'll happen to you too.

You know, I realized I made my name sh!t on these forums but when is time to let it go? This forum is the only place (on the net and in real life) that shows any hatred for me. I know I post weird sh!t on here but this is the only place, the ONLY place that ever says I'm some stupid teen that doesn't know jack sh!t, that needs to grow up out of this depression bullsh!t and has this infamous "teen angst" crap you all love to throw at me. I had about fifty people read that essay and I got nothing but positive responses. It was from people on the internet to people I live around.

I just don't understand why I can't ever get one single positive reply from this forum. Coming here I'm just labeled psychotic. I mean other people read this saying it's profound, deep and brooding and that I should try and get published. Here, teen angst, teen angst, pseudo-intellectual, pseudo-philosophical, psudeo-everything. I question if you all have no conception of my work, are simply ignorant to it and quick to insult or just using me as a target to shoot your own insecurities at. I really don't know.

 

[Crappopotamus]

um. i didnt read it, but i think youre a huge loser. you wrote an essay on your free time? shouldnt you be doing something else? im going just to chill with friends, plus its something that only happens once in your life. why miss out?

 

[opticalmace]

Need more treble on your Linkin Park.

Louder, please.

 

[Wuffsunie]

You have a future writing Goth novels, no question there.

BTW, do I really want to know what your essential muscle is? Or is it what I think it is? Because it can't be your brain; that's fat, not muscle. (Seriously, look it up if you have to.)

I like the parts where you contradict yourself, most notably how you constantly reinterate how those people are oblivious to you and ignore your existence, yet they seem to keep coming back to ply their wares as if you express some modicrum of caring. Cliques in higshchool rarely -- especially not during social events such as prom -- make an effort to include outsides, which you are, by all accounts including your own.

I also can't tell what's more extreme in this soliloquy (it's not an essay), the angst or the arrogance.

 

[Legendary]

You write well, but you assume much about others. What you should add at the end of that 2nd to last paragraph might be something like "Or maybe I just don't know what these other people have in their minds, because I'm not psychic." You're not "ahead" of anything. If you think what you "know" is more "mature" than others, than you are the ignorant one, IMO.
And for the record, I debated heavily going to prom, and by the time I decided to go the girls I wanted to ask already had dates. But I went anyway because you know what? It's one night of my life, and while I didn't have fun at or after prom, I'm still glad I went. At least I'm not left with doubt. But that's because I didn't assume prom would be bad in the first place, and that is where you and I most likely differ.
Edit: And yet - somehow - despite the mental struggle that went on in my head to go to prom, the fact that I had shown up would automatically label me, in your terms, an "automaton," "sheep" and "lapdog." Does that seem arrogant to you? Do you think you're an omniscient person? <-- your answer to that second question would be very enlightening to me.
By the way, if this sounds aggressive towards you, that's not my purpose. I'm really not that good of a writer.

 

[AIWGuru]

Originally posted by: Dowfen
Somewhere between "my misanthropy that roots deeper than even life's own origins" and "having no female friends" I stopped reading.

Other than that, it was a real slam dunk.

If you stopped reading between point A and point B how do you know what point B is?

 

[FrogDog]

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: FrogDog
So have you set a date yet for the suicide, or are you just going to play it by ear?

Edit - Seriously though (. . . .) I once was like you (just take it down about 20 notches), and then I grew up. Sorry, but it'll happen to you too.

You know, I realized I made my name sh!t on these forums but when is time to let it go? This forum is the only place (on the net and in real life) that shows any hatred for me. I know I post weird sh!t on here but this is the only place, the ONLY place that ever says I'm some stupid teen that doesn't know jack sh!t, that needs to grow up out of this depression bullsh!t and has this infamous "teen angst" crap you all love to throw at me. I had about fifty people read that essay and I got nothing but positive responses. It was from people on the internet to people I live around.

I just don't understand why I can't ever get one single positive reply from this forum. Coming here I'm just labeled psychotic. I mean other people read this saying it's profound, deep and brooding and that I should try and get published. Here, teen angst, teen angst, pseudo-intellectual, pseudo-philosophical, psudeo-everything. I question if you all have no conception of my work, are simply ignorant to it and quick to insult or just using me as a target to shoot your own insecurities at. I really don't know.

You're obviously a very good writer. The essay is very well done and conveys a strong message. Good job on it. However, in five years (max) you're going to look back on it and say, "I'm glad I'm not like that anymore!" Feel free to prove me wrong, although I'd advise against it.

 

[fyleow]

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: FrogDog
So have you set a date yet for the suicide, or are you just going to play it by ear?

Edit - Seriously though (. . . .) I once was like you (just take it down about 20 notches), and then I grew up. Sorry, but it'll happen to you too.

You know, I realized I made my name sh!t on these forums but when is time to let it go? This forum is the only place (on the net and in real life) that shows any hatred for me. I know I post weird sh!t on here but this is the only place, the ONLY place that ever says I'm some stupid teen that doesn't know jack sh!t, that needs to grow up out of this depression bullsh!t and has this infamous "teen angst" crap you all love to throw at me. I had about fifty people read that essay and I got nothing but positive responses. It was from people on the internet to people I live around.

I just don't understand why I can't ever get one single positive reply from this forum. Coming here I'm just labeled psychotic. I mean other people read this saying it's profound, deep and brooding and that I should try and get published. Here, teen angst, teen angst, pseudo-intellectual, pseudo-philosophical, psudeo-everything. I question if you all have no conception of my work, are simply ignorant to it and quick to insult or just using me as a target to shoot your own insecurities at. I really don't know.

Because on the forums nobody gives a sh!t about you. We don't give a sh!t about your feelings, we don't care who the hell you are. We wil give you brutal honesty.