Originally posted by: potato28
Find a better spot, shouldn't be that hard to do. Just find a forest, park the car somewheres nearby but not right where you are and go find a little area to smoke up in. You might be able to get that bong back though, just keep calling and asking.
I'm going to apply for a license.
I have significant psychological evaluations that substantiate my case.
These motherfuckers aren't getting my vaporizer.
I have ADHD and I have anxiety.
My ADHD is mixed type, the problem is that my amphetamines can only do so much.
So far I've tried every single stimulant in Canada that is used to treat ADHD and none of them have the ability to normalize my TOVA score (It's a cognitive test of attention and hyperactivity). As is the case with alot of ADHD kids, they get a mixed bag of other conditions. I just so happened to have anxiety as well. I think it's genetic but nonetheless I have the unfortunate condition with another one. How does this affect me? Imagine studying for a test, imagine writing that test and then dwelling on what you could have done better. For everyone it goes away after a few hours after writing the test and they're followed by relief.
Me? Not so.
I am consistently hamstrung by the thought of doing poorly on exams. I'm not the type of person who is striving for A+s at all, infact I'd say my work ethic is mediocre at best. I don't know why but I want to relax but I can't. I can't unwind, instead I have to consistently dwell on the examination and it consumes me. Imagine this type of lifestyle in University during midterm week. Regardless of my ability to perform on an examination (or not), I will not let it go. I just can't. I've tried numerous coping strategies and I refuse to take benzodiazepenes because I'm currently taking stimulants and I'd like something with shorter half life.
Right now my situation may be laughable to you; I haven't done marijuana much believe it or not. About 13 times since I didn't do it much until recently. I've found that after my stimulant medication wears off the marijuana provides the ability for me to relax, and not be significantly impaired. The best part is it allows me to sleep in peace and for that time I am under the influence, I have the ability to get away from it all.
I have tried many medications, and I don't want to take any more pills as it is. I feel taking amphetamines to even control my cognitive impairment is enough, and now to take away a vaporizer that wasn't being used everyday, but at times where it could help me unwind is ridiculous.
What bothers me most is how you all think I'm some stoner and you laugh at my situation. Infact it irritates me more than you'd think. I do not like being pushed as a waste to society. I put my best foot forward and I usually try to be a good person, but that all changes when people start insulting me and saying I'm a whiner. I'm not a whiner. If you had to deal with what I go through then you'd understand. Everyone in America has ADHD yet they can mysteriously pull As on their final exams or exams with minor medication. How come me, mr badguy, takes alot of Amphetamines, studies twice as hard, does worse?
Stupid mistakes, they continually bite me and then they follow me home.
I have the misfortune of not being able to stop thinking, i consistently think and I want to go away. Marijuana was actually pretty useful in my findings to suppress this consistent analysis and thought process.
I wouldn't look at a wall and calculate stupid and useless things about it's properties, I'm actually calm and normal. On my medication I still get asked "what'd you have dude? ADD?". It's quite insulting. You guys wouldn't understand anyways, 95 percent of you are normal with medication. I"M NOT, accepting people who don't fit the norm should be reason enough to allow someone to alternatively solve their situation.
Take more ADHD meds? I become clinically depressed, I do not talk and I am dejected. I hate my environment and I look forward to sleeping. Yes I'm on that fine of a line when it comes to medications.. Imagine benzodiazepenes with their massive half life? I don't want to deal with it.
Take my situation as a grain of salt since that's all you guys are doing anyways, but I'm not your casual stoner who does it because it's fun. I do it because it helps me stop thinking for that period, which to me is ultimate tranquility.