Oh no you only got a B. This is terrible.
:biggrin:?
I feel the same way Dumac does about getting a B. . After flunking out of college I felt a bit funny, but things were going to work out. That was my style until I started losing jobs to a bunch of monkeys flinging poo. I don't want the rest of my life to end up like middle school, so I went back and had to retake all the classes I got Ds and Fs in; I even retook a course I got a C in and didn't even enjoy, just to bring my GPA > 3.0 so I could take the engineering courses.
I'm Yoda, I'm a sold-ja.
After realizing there even was a Chancellor's list, for straight A students, getting student work based on my grades, getting school paid for, getting an A+ in Physics II... :whiste:, and studying hard for things I found completely retarded, getting a B now in an easy course for stupid reasons is really upsetting.
You fall behind just a little bit and it worries you to see the devil laughing off in the distance. It becomes important to stay above the heap. Is this a small crack, or just a one way ticket to fallure? I need confirmation that I am a success and I don't get this from just being a slacker.
I don't seem to have that gift of slack any longer, and seriously question the attitude of people who say "whatever" a lot. People find it easy to joke about, "Oh yeah, you got a B. Why don't you just go hang yourself." Well that is negative reinforcement, so now we are also failures for not feeling good about failing, and this, overall, is the drive for me going back to college: you damn crazy apes.
It might seem dumb but it is pretty frightening after you decide this is your last chance/goal in life and it has been made clear that people have high expectations. It was all those expectations that got you the happiness and success from hard work, that you deserved; you've gained some respect for instructors who deal with the stupid factor everyday. You don't find it easy to hate something because it momentarily makes you feel good and clarity of mind doesn't allow you to blame other people after you've taken credit for your success.
Failing to get an A in an easy class really feels like your getting an F. You have to switch all your excuses around (Is school too hard or too easy, I keep forgetting which?) and then they no longer have any meaning. You just let boredom defeat you and it really should take a lot more than that.
Its the same force that makes some people feel like shit for getting a B that makes other people feel good about it.