Damn, tomorrow is Monday and I have to go to work again. Just thinking of it makes me wanna kill myself. If only I could die painlessly and quickly I'd be all for it, but I suspect this isn't going to work. Someone has to put me out of my misery. But who can I count on? I can't trust even myself. This job of mine... it's like life in hell. Simply put, it sucks so badly it makes me want to cry. Now I guess someone could tell me to get another job. Easier said than done, obviously. It's like a Chinese torture. Imagine, I have to sit in front of a computer all day surrounded by ladies who are also at their damn computers and work, work, work. My eyes hurt from looking at the frigging PC screen 8 hours a day. At my last job I worked for my father's aquaintance, and I did nothing all day, nothing and was happy. I just sat on my ass and stared at the wall in front of me, drank coffee and tea, had 2-hour long lunch break, was feeling sooo lazy and relaxed, came to work at 10 or even 11 a.m., left at 5 p.m. and barely even had to look at the computer screen, maybe to browse the 'net a little. And I didn't feel bored. Noone disturbed me and that was all I called for at the time. But after 1.5 years of happy life I got booted and had to look for a new job. Try to find a good job being an accountant. And what else can I do? Go to college again? What can I become? I bet it would be the same agony as accounting. God how I hate all this crap. I was hired by a magazine and now I have to write stuff about accounting problems there. This is killing me. There is a strict schedule and every day I have to write something. Every frigging day I have to work. I still wonder why they hired my lazy ass, probably coz they don't pay much money there, I don't know. But if they fire me too or I quit what the hell am I supposed to do? I don't have money and the only way I can get it is working and I don't like to work. Do you think there's a way out of this vicious circle?