I'm drifting thru life... :(

[JEDI]

I used to be HEAVY into online gaming. In college it was 40+ hrs/week and still managed to graduate w/a 3.0 in Computer Engineering (BS) and 3.4 in management (MS).

then i got a job in IT tech support. i learned everything on the job. nothing from school helped me w/what i was doing. i felt like i wasted $50k ($100k if it wasnt for scholarships) on those degrees. that was ~10 years ago. (all student loans are paid off.)

i kept on playing online games, then somthing changed after i was done with Age of Empires 2 (Age of Kings). b4 AOK, I always felt a little hollowness feeling in me, but i ignored it. But after AOK, that hollowness got to the point where i couldnt ignore it anymore. And online gaming since then wasn't as fun. i bought a gf4 4200 to play Unreal Tournament 2003. I played the demo and realized my old Radeon 32meg PCI wasn't going to cut it. The ironic part is that i bought the gf4, but never bought UT2k3. That hollowness feeling was now almost overwealming.

I then realized people who become addicted to online gaming have other problems. There's something in them that causes the addiction, as with any addiction.

I;ve since dropped online gaming and join a pool league. it's a fun league. we play to have fun, and it's not cut-throat competitive. But that hollowness feeling is still there. it's as if i'm subsitituating online gaming w/pool.

I feel like i have no aim or purpose in life.

What would you do to change this situation? of finding a purpose???

 

[SlowSS]

Find a good woman.

 

[Deeko]

I'm confused...you are depressed because you don't play games anymore?

 

[Poontos]

Take control. Only you have the choice.

 

[notfred]

maybe you don't find tech support to be a fullfilling career?

Not to be offensive, but I'd feel like a failure if I spent 10 years in phone support.

Also, maybe you're lonely? Been dating at all?

 

[gopunk]

i'm unclear as why you never got a job related to CE...

 

[Nocturnal]

Perhaps you are depressed? Maybe you should speak to your doctor about things.

 

[Spyro]

Let me get this straight, you're depressed because you've dropped out of online gaming. Dude, it sounds like you need to get a life. (Or you could wait until star wars galaxies is released.)

 

[Queasy]

Life is what you make of it. If you are bored/disinterested at work then you have to find something that reasonably gets your blood-flowing and gains your interest. Just joining a pool league is not going to solve all your problems. You may need a job change/career change/lifestyle change.

Or you just need to go get laid

 

[Azraele]

Sounds like you're wanting a change of pace, career, or maybe a change of venue, or all of the above.

 

[lilFajita]

maybe you just outgrew online gamng, and now you have to find something else that is satisfying...sometimes you just move on, cause your life needs something different

 

[JEDI]

Originally posted by: lilFajita
maybe you just outgrew online gamng, and now you have to find something else that is satisfying...sometimes you just move on, cause your life needs something different

yeah, but i dont know what what that "different" thing is. how do i search for something that i dont know what i'm searching for

 

[Skyclad1uhm1]

Look at what makes you feel happy, what fantasy you currently have. It may be a relationship, it may be the search for a purpose in life, it may be extreme sports, as long as it keeps you busy. Don't let the emptyness take over, because that will kill you inside.

 

[Broohaha]

Do you have friends? Companionship? Poontang?

 

[Maleficus]

I feel pretty much the same way, i been playing games forever but all the games suck now and im bored to tears. I can't find a thing i enjoy doing.

tried working on cars, modding my computer, reading, swimming, go to work ( pizza hut woohoo!

), nothing i do seems to give me any enjoyment either. Life is extremely dull and boring...

 

[Skyclad1uhm1]

Originally posted by: Broohaha
Do you have friends? Companionship? Poontang?

When depression hits friends may not matter anymore.

I used to game a lot, then suddenly cut myself off cold turkey (didn't want to spent my whole life gaming). When heavy depression hit I fled to music instead. When music stopped working I got myself a new PC with internet access to lose myself in gaming again. Better to do something that will keep you going than to lose yourself entirely.

Hollowness can stay just that, or it can progress to worse. I'd recommend finding something else before it does though.

 

[rawoutput]

Join the army and stop bitching

 

[Mani]

Do more things besides the pool league. Do something physical like work out, ride a bike, run and you'll be surprised how good it can make you feel. Go out, meet people, and make friends. If after doing all that you still feel hollow maybe your life needs to take a spiritual direction to fill the void.

 

[mrCide]

i've found the only only thing that makes me happy is being in a relationship with a woman i truly like.

 

[Maleficus]

Originally posted by: Mani
Do more things besides the pool league. Do something physical like work out, ride a bike, run and you'll be surprised how good it can make you feel. Go out, meet people, and make friends. If after doing all that you still feel hollow maybe your life needs to take a spiritual direction to fill the void.

so what do you do when you

have friends
tried working out/ swimming / riding bikes
online gaming
lost all faith in religion

?

thats me. Im still bored as hell and cant find a thing that interests me at all.

 

[gregshin]

find a hobby dood...i was hallow in when of my Ex's left me...games and everything else felt sucky....you need to take a break...start working out and excercising...nothing frees the mind and soul like a good workout

 

[Mani]

Originally posted by: Maleficus

Originally posted by: Mani
Do more things besides the pool league. Do something physical like work out, ride a bike, run and you'll be surprised how good it can make you feel. Go out, meet people, and make friends. If after doing all that you still feel hollow maybe your life needs to take a spiritual direction to fill the void.

so what do you do when you

have friends
tried working out/ swimming / riding bikes
online gaming
lost all faith in religion

?

thats me. Im still bored as hell and cant find a thing that interests me at all.

My best suggestion, though it easier said than done is to get a girlfriend.

 

[Maleficus]

Originally posted by: Mani

Originally posted by: Maleficus

Originally posted by: Mani
Do more things besides the pool league. Do something physical like work out, ride a bike, run and you'll be surprised how good it can make you feel. Go out, meet people, and make friends. If after doing all that you still feel hollow maybe your life needs to take a spiritual direction to fill the void.

so what do you do when you

have friends
tried working out/ swimming / riding bikes
online gaming
lost all faith in religion

?

thats me. Im still bored as hell and cant find a thing that interests me at all.

My best suggestion, though it easier said than done is to get a girlfriend.

I've yet to find a girl that i like, one that i truly enjoy her company. its not like you can just go and pick one up ( or at least i can't ) im not interested in a shallow relationship.

 

[lilFajita]

Originally posted by: XFILE

Originally posted by: lilFajita
maybe you just outgrew online gamng, and now you have to find something else that is satisfying...sometimes you just move on, cause your life needs something different

yeah, but i dont know what what that "different" thing is. how do i search for something that i dont know what i'm searching for

searching wouldn't be searching if you knew just what you were looking for...its kind of the essense of it. Sometimes you just have to force yourself to try something...lots will suck, many will just be ok....and something will fit. It's not easy, it just takes time

 

[Deeko]

I say get yourself a girl. That will brighten your day.