Some further thoughts continuing my direction provided in
post# 328.
iwearnosox, my use of the term "paranoid delusional" may not be 100% true because I am not used to thinking in these terms. "Schizophrenia" is something I am avoiding due to the formal classification of a "severe mental disorder" that is most often treated with medication to dull the brain. Such medication is not a treatment, it is a way to lessen the social danger of someone having problems.
In my previous examples; one friend thought skinheads were after him while the other thought the local drug distribution gang was after him. Both of these beliefs could very well have been true in a manner similar to your situation. There may be a small group looking to make life difficult for you. However, do not let this motivate you to think that
everyone is after you. The large scale of people you mention are most certainly not after you.
You seem to be slipping in your ability to handle society. Something is wrong. You need to focus on what is wrong with your ability to interact with society, and fix it in yourself. Maybe this means getting a new job, moving to another geographic area, moving in with a friend or family for a lower cost of living, or even going on public welfare to survive. You need to determine how to fix your life and act on this.
The "dynamite" in your attic are the chimes for an old-style doorbell. As someone aptly mentioned earlier. That is why it is connected to your doorbell. The rat in your attic is random chance. Animals get stuck in attics all the time all over the country. I have had racoons, squirrels, and bees in mine. A rat is not out of the ordinary. Now that I remember it, as a growing child, we even found a dead rat underneath the stove in our kitchen when my parents were moving out. (Maybe one of the cats brought it in ...)
People are acting strange around you because you are the one acting strange. You just do not realize it yet. When I was getting my divorce, I was so unhappy that my facial expressions and tone of voice changed to the point of alarming people in public. People started behaving in a "not nice" manner to me and this shocked me. These were employed people in public positions like cashiers and such that did know me and were paid to be nice to the customers, yet they were behaving "ugly" with me. I realized that my problems were creating poor behavior within me. People saw this immediately and reacted in a defensive manner. They may even have been afraid of me.
When I realized my behavior was bad, I locked myself away in my apartment. Friends would invite me for a holiday dinner and I would snap or say inappropriate things. Thus motivating me to further shut myself in. After many months of shutting myself in, even a trip to Target would give me a panic attack from being around all those people. It took a long time to rebuild myself to the point I was comfortable going out in public again.
My best solution was to resume exercising, running helped the most but was preceded by walking. Sometimes I would go running in the early morning hours before the sun rose, just to get outside and be alone.
You need to pull yourself together, now. Maybe moving will help, I am not sure. Talk to friends and family if you have any, socialize with them, depend on them if you must. Get out in the sunshine for walks. The sunshine generates vitamin D, without Vit. D we fall into a depression similar to your behavior. With that in mind, take a daily vitamin and improve your diet. Go for walks out in the sun every day if possible. Then start jogging if you can. This will get you outside and the exercise will improve your mood and way of thinking.
If you do not act to improve yourself, you will spiral down deeper and deeper into your problems and crash. In a manner of speaking, you are fighting for your life. Not against other people but against yourself. Make the decision to pull yourself together and live.