I spent my elementary and middle school days in a very Orthodox Private Jewish school. I didnt have social interaction with anyone besides Male, White, rich Jews. Then My parents sent me to a public high school. I was desperate to fit in. I put myself through hell! Then I took the one big plunge that I thought might change everything...it did..I started to do drugs. Mostly Pot but a LSD, beer, cocaine ( a little ). And I got into so much trouble I was shipperd off to boarding school. After a year I came back...and all of a sudden I was the coolest guy on the block. I dont know what it was but it was Senior year and I was hooking up with the hottest girl in school! It was incredible, and then.....Graduation. It was all over, and all those meaningless, COOL friends are long gone. I still am close with my lifelong friends (some from my Jewish sachool days, and some my Pot smoking buddies(who really ended up becomeing true friends)). But the 'Popular Kids' are out of my life. I think back to Senir year, alot. I was having Sex with beautiful girls, and hanigng out with the cool kids. Now I am a 22 year old Computr Nerd. I skipped college to get paid, and thus I missed out on the last chance to continue the high school COOL game (i.e. join a frat in college), and I miss being with beautiful women. I wasnt those days back, all the time. I was left with a taste of something that I crave to this day. HOT, RICH, SNOBBY women! I want them, physically more than anything else, but I also want to satisfy that small part of me that is still a 9th grade nerd, wearing a yamurlka in high school and just wanting to fit in.