Originally posted by: SampSon
I'd feel sorry for you because of your rabid drug addiction, but after
This thread and
This thread it's clear you simply need help.
I hate to say it but,
I TOLD YOU SO! You need to get help, most likely you will REQUIRED to get help by the courts, if they let you stay out of jail. The reality is that you need the help to get sober and take life as it comes. At the bottom of this problem will be a very real depression/anxiety problem that you simply haven't been bothered to face your entire life. You masked it with drugs of all sorts. Sure you got by day to day and made yourself a life, but you can't deal with your life without drugs. This is a very common thing, more common that you know and more common than anyone here knows or wants to admit. You will learn this when you enter and work your way through a recovery program.
Substance abuse is so common that it shouldn't be surprising anymore. Every single person in this thread is related to it in some way, no matter if they recogize it or not. If you are willing to embrace the help that will be given to you then you will get through this. The courts will most likely require you to do this, but you have to keep a strong belief that you are doing this for yourself. If you go through a recovery program thinking that you're only going through it to stay out of jail then you will ultimately fail and go right back to being addicted.
No one thinks they have a problem nor will they do anything about it until they have lost something or are about to lose something. You have hit that point and now you must face up to the problem and everything else you really hate about life. You will get through this, because people out there care for you, trust me.