Hey guys,
I'm coming here because I have a difficulty talking about this subject with the people around me. Today, I'm going to tell my girlfriend that over the last few months I've lost over $6,000 dollars playing poker. $1500 happened today when AA and KK and QQ all got cracked by inferior cards and I got in while the value was good. There is no logic to poker, crazy shit happens, it's simply a game of having crazy shit happening less often to you over time.
While it's easy for me to blame outside factors, the simple fact is I was trying to achieve a lifestyle through a method that sucks people in and preys on the addictive personality and the constant desire for something more.
For some of us, there simply is nothing more, just trouble.
I started gambling in university casually with some friends of mine, it started off being a few dollars lost, then a hundred dollars lost and so on and so on.
About a year ago I kicked the habit, after losing hard earned money, friends, family and my own sanity, self confidence. But the thing that kept on catching up to me was the fact that I was surrounded by people of affluence who spent and spent and spent and all I wanted to do was be like them.
(Some of you are aware that I'm a bit of a snob, went to private school and have decently wealthy parents).. well most of the people I have surrounded myself with are the same way, except for the fact that I (and my girlfriend) are one of three with a job and while my parents cover food, and rent I've had to cover the fun stuff and I've never felt secure in the fact that I could keep up with everyone else on my wages alone. Instead of cutting expenses and not going out I took the stupid way out.
I couldn't keep up with them with the work that I was doing even though I get paid spectacularly well. It was back on. About two months ago my girlfriend and I got drunk and she wanted to go to the casino near our apartment. I almost peed myself because I was so scared, gambling was a demon that I did not want to confront again, but I didn't have it in my heart to say no.
For some reason I was just never content with being a university student that made a $1500 a month at work. Jesus, $1500 is pretty darned good for a student if you ask me!
Ladies and Gentlemen, I don't know whether to laugh because I've got this demon off of my back, or cry. I'm almost (almost) broke, though I take some solace in the fact that some of my friends are almost as broke as me. I cry about lost opportunities, money gone to waste, or the fact that I will not be able to enjoy things because of the money I have wasted.
My parents almost killed me last time, I do not know how to approach them this time. That is why I am here.
People, if you are not good at poker in the beginning, chances are you never will be. It is a mental weakness, people make money in poker by preying on those who are always looking for the next get rich quick scheme, who will push the limits of reasonableness to achieve what they otherwise shouldn't.
Please heed my advice and avoid the disaster that I have created for myself, it will make your life easier.
Sincerely,
Ryan
I'm coming here because I have a difficulty talking about this subject with the people around me. Today, I'm going to tell my girlfriend that over the last few months I've lost over $6,000 dollars playing poker. $1500 happened today when AA and KK and QQ all got cracked by inferior cards and I got in while the value was good. There is no logic to poker, crazy shit happens, it's simply a game of having crazy shit happening less often to you over time.
While it's easy for me to blame outside factors, the simple fact is I was trying to achieve a lifestyle through a method that sucks people in and preys on the addictive personality and the constant desire for something more.
For some of us, there simply is nothing more, just trouble.
I started gambling in university casually with some friends of mine, it started off being a few dollars lost, then a hundred dollars lost and so on and so on.
About a year ago I kicked the habit, after losing hard earned money, friends, family and my own sanity, self confidence. But the thing that kept on catching up to me was the fact that I was surrounded by people of affluence who spent and spent and spent and all I wanted to do was be like them.
(Some of you are aware that I'm a bit of a snob, went to private school and have decently wealthy parents).. well most of the people I have surrounded myself with are the same way, except for the fact that I (and my girlfriend) are one of three with a job and while my parents cover food, and rent I've had to cover the fun stuff and I've never felt secure in the fact that I could keep up with everyone else on my wages alone. Instead of cutting expenses and not going out I took the stupid way out.
I couldn't keep up with them with the work that I was doing even though I get paid spectacularly well. It was back on. About two months ago my girlfriend and I got drunk and she wanted to go to the casino near our apartment. I almost peed myself because I was so scared, gambling was a demon that I did not want to confront again, but I didn't have it in my heart to say no.
For some reason I was just never content with being a university student that made a $1500 a month at work. Jesus, $1500 is pretty darned good for a student if you ask me!
Ladies and Gentlemen, I don't know whether to laugh because I've got this demon off of my back, or cry. I'm almost (almost) broke, though I take some solace in the fact that some of my friends are almost as broke as me. I cry about lost opportunities, money gone to waste, or the fact that I will not be able to enjoy things because of the money I have wasted.
My parents almost killed me last time, I do not know how to approach them this time. That is why I am here.
People, if you are not good at poker in the beginning, chances are you never will be. It is a mental weakness, people make money in poker by preying on those who are always looking for the next get rich quick scheme, who will push the limits of reasonableness to achieve what they otherwise shouldn't.
Please heed my advice and avoid the disaster that I have created for myself, it will make your life easier.
Sincerely,
Ryan