If I have no desire to compete in anything is there any real reason to use?
Oh sure, there's a ton of reasons other than competing - to get girls, to improve your self-confidence, to get better results, etc. But it's like chugging protein shakes...do you really need it, when you can just eat real food? Not really (unless you specifically want to compete with other people using PED's), but people get sucked into the lifestyle & ideas that go along with it. Side note, this is a good article on the myth of protein requirements:
http://bayesianbodybuilding.com/the-myth-of-1glb-optimal-protein-intake-for-bodybuilders/
Interestingly enough, I always thought that steroids were a horrible poison, but the documentary (available on Netflix) "Bigger, Faster, Stronger" kind of changed my mind about them:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KzGfuFFSxA
I still don't personally think they're a good idea or condone them, but seeing the real scoop on steroids was pretty eye-opening from an educational point-of-view. And of course, like Lance Armstrong's doping scandal, just because you take magic juice doesn't mean you're going to get instant, amazing results - you still have to work
really hard, but you do get bigger, faster, and stronger faster & easier. If your discipline stinks now, you're not magically going to develop new habits to harness the power of drugs, you know?
That, and you simply can't get the same visible, physical results without them. There's a pretty good site called Natty or Not that has a ton of great information discussing the topic of what natural & enhanced looks like: (check out the Archive for more articles)
http://nattyornot.com/how-big-can-you-get-naturally-without-steroids/
It also depends on what you want to put in your body. I'm pretty picky...sure I'll eat fast food & sugar sometimes, but I don't even touch caffeine, which may be extreme for some people, and definitely don't advocate illegal steroid use whatsoever. And for me, it's really interesting to see what's coming out of modern science & medicine in terms of getting education & getting results, everything from clean eating to intermittent fasting to flexible dieting, stuff that doesn't involve having to live a shady lifestyle.
Anyway, it doesn't sound like you have a driving reason to use that stuff other than getting better results, but if you're not sleeping enough, eating enough, and exercising enough already, nothing is going to change anyway...and as people like Lance, Arnold, etc., have shown, those are tools that enhance what you're already doing (and also have dead giveaways physically, like
3D steroid deltoids), not magic pills that give overnight results. One other thing is you have to decide if you want to live a secret life around obtaining & using this stuff, and possibly have to hide it from your girlfriend, parents, friends, etc. So there's a few factors involved when thinking about this stuff...