you are their bitch, you have a masters in EE and you took 38k what kind of man are you? maybe your a convict and no one will hire you... hmmm....
LOL. Hehe.
Actually, it's kind of a complicated and embarrassing story. I'm basically a loser. I was in a bad point in my life. When I went back to grad school (after working), my parents wanted me to continue helping out at their restaurant -- I interpreted that to mean they did not want me to work at school. Well, working in a restaurant while ny peers are being TAs and doing research dropped my self esteem. In addition, it was a major crimp in my social life which dropped my self esteem further down.
Anyways, after I got my masters, I could not get a job. This dropped my self esteem to a really low point! I gave really bad interviews (no self confidence). But the real kicker was that I could not put down any references because I had no friends. I remember getting applications and not being able to fill them out because of this. Working in the restaurant kind of isolated me socially. The embarrassment of having no friends made me withdraw from the world.
I kept asking my parents to hire someone so that I could concentrate on school and my social life but they never did. It really hurt me to see kids come up to the restaurant and ask for an application and see my mom tell them we didn't need anyone. Because of my depression, I lingered too long in school so that I couldn't really used my references from my old job (and I certainly couldn't put down my parents as a reference). I felt trapped and wanted to kill myself.
During a long period of unsuccessfully trying for a pHD and looking for a job, I finally got a break. Someone offered me a student position at a lab. Then I managed to get a TA position. All of a sudden my self confidence started to go up. The next interview I gave, I got the job. And I was able to use references from my student job and TA positions. I felt so grateful that someone took a chance on me that I would have worked for free just to be able to prove myself.
I still have no social life but my professional career seems to be okay (I heard I might be getting another raise ). I worry about being able to continue my professional success because of my lack of ability in the "small talk" area. I just prefer to keep to myself because I'm basically embarrassed about my life and I'm worried that people will think I'm anti-social. I've already heard comments that I'm the quietest person they've ever met and stuff like that. The cleaning lady even asked me if I had any friends and that I should go out and meet people. Haha, I'm such a loser...