I neglected my girlfriend for months, spent all my time on the computer while she was on the couch. Never gave an inch in an arguement - I was a bad boyfriend.
Her blog 2 months ago:
"i don't know what to do anymore. our relationship isn't working anymore. i can't apologize anymore. i can't let go of the things that are nagging at me. i don't feel loved. i don't feel wanted. when i'm over at his house i feel like a nuisance, a burden. like someone who just wants to take him away from his work. i have to beg for attention. the passion has dwindled. he's sarcastic and mean. i feel so needy, and i feel like i have become that whiny, bitchy girlfriend. and i f*cking hate it. i just don't know what to do. i love him, and i know he loves me, even though he has a funny way of showing it. i don't want to break up. but i also don't want to continue to be neglected and feel this way.
i'm going home this weekend in hopes that some space will do more good than harm. he can work on his f*cking computer without me bothering him. he doesn't have to worry about 'wasting his time paying attention to me'"
Then she cheated on me. The girl I love. Ironically my years of sl*tty "bad girls" never produced a situation like this, and now I face it from a girl that "doesnt do things like that". I am shocked.. Good home, good grades, great future.. I thought I had really struck gold with her.
She says it was a mistake. The sex doesnt hurt, but the emotions f*cking do. I've been rejected by the girl I love, she wanted someone else - someone to talk to, someone to hold her..
It took me an hour to take her back, I feel so dead. I used to enjoy my "f*ck it" attitude, now I'm scared to speak. I touch her every second I can, we hug and cry, she says its going to be alright, it still hurts. All of my control has been subverted, this is she must have felt for 8 months.. She fell asleep early tonight, present but invisible. My mind wanders- "there is too much poison in our love" but I still will hold on.
Her blog 2 months ago:
"i don't know what to do anymore. our relationship isn't working anymore. i can't apologize anymore. i can't let go of the things that are nagging at me. i don't feel loved. i don't feel wanted. when i'm over at his house i feel like a nuisance, a burden. like someone who just wants to take him away from his work. i have to beg for attention. the passion has dwindled. he's sarcastic and mean. i feel so needy, and i feel like i have become that whiny, bitchy girlfriend. and i f*cking hate it. i just don't know what to do. i love him, and i know he loves me, even though he has a funny way of showing it. i don't want to break up. but i also don't want to continue to be neglected and feel this way.
i'm going home this weekend in hopes that some space will do more good than harm. he can work on his f*cking computer without me bothering him. he doesn't have to worry about 'wasting his time paying attention to me'"
Then she cheated on me. The girl I love. Ironically my years of sl*tty "bad girls" never produced a situation like this, and now I face it from a girl that "doesnt do things like that". I am shocked.. Good home, good grades, great future.. I thought I had really struck gold with her.
She says it was a mistake. The sex doesnt hurt, but the emotions f*cking do. I've been rejected by the girl I love, she wanted someone else - someone to talk to, someone to hold her..
It took me an hour to take her back, I feel so dead. I used to enjoy my "f*ck it" attitude, now I'm scared to speak. I touch her every second I can, we hug and cry, she says its going to be alright, it still hurts. All of my control has been subverted, this is she must have felt for 8 months.. She fell asleep early tonight, present but invisible. My mind wanders- "there is too much poison in our love" but I still will hold on.