Post from Roy, he tried to post it but got this error "You have been forbidden to post/reply or edit a message in these forums" when he tried and he was logged in.
I want to share with the people that have been so supportive of me.
On Oct. 1 I used $40 from the sale of my crack rack to pay for a taxi ride to
link=http://www.dallasmetrocare.com/About_Us/about_us.html]MetroCare[/link] in East Dallas. I had reached the point where I could no longer deny that I needed immediate help with the deep depression I had fallen into.
After explaining to the doctor the depth of my depression she offered two possibilities. "Voluntary" or "involuntary" admission to a psychiatric hospital in Dallas. At this point it became very obvious that my depression was not going to miraculously disappear simply because I had found employment. The state of Texas paid for five days of hospitalization at which time I needed to choose an outpatient program. Fortunately my sister from Texarkana had discussed with her husband the possibility of me moving into their house to continue my recovery. Upon receiving word that my sister's husband agreed to open his house to me I agreed to move there. Living here provides the needed support but it's a large change from my previous lifestyle. Sometimes a person must do what is necessary during times of trouble.
Now after two weeks of taking an anti-depressant medication I'm glad to report that I'm in much better condition compared to two weeks ago. This is not to say that a miracle has happened. Although I still pray for a miracle. The mental health clinics within Texas all have their own requirements for admission into their program. So I'm now in the process of applying to the clinic here. The Texarkana clinic does not immediately accept you even though you have qualified for admission into the Dallas clinic. Totally ludicrous. My sister has agreed to pay for my medication until the clinic here has completed their entrance evaluation. Should only be about three more weeks before I qualify for treatment here.
For anyone that reads this message and thinks that they may be experiencing depression, I strongly recommend that you seek treatment immediately. I never realized just how debilitating the illness can be. Granted, being hit with bankruptcy, extended unemployment, divorce after 15 yrs of marriage which includes two beautiful children, and deep depression is more than almost any person can withstand. Having had two beautiful children, 6 figure job, a big house in North Dallas, etc,.. I now realize just how quickly a person can lose all that he/she has.
I realize that this is not the "bed of roses" update that some may have been hoping to read. However, I wanted to share with you what's really happening in my life.
I will always remember the great support that the people within this thread have demonstrated.
God Bless,
Roy Cain