OP, I am going to let you in on the secret 4-part process. Ordinarily I would charge up to hundreds of dollars for this information, but for you it is free.
1. Find something that interests you. A technology, a sport, pornography, whatever. You will find that this advice can work for almost anything, with a little adaptation and effort.
2. Do it. Learn about it. Be good at it. Get a degree in it. You get the idea.
3. Find other people that are also interested in it.
4. If possible, find a way to make money from it, or something related to it.
Most engineers I know, including me, followed something like this process. If you can make it to step 2, the rest is easier than you would think.
You have nothing to lose but your emo-ness.
1. Find something that interests you. A technology, a sport, pornography, whatever. You will find that this advice can work for almost anything, with a little adaptation and effort.
2. Do it. Learn about it. Be good at it. Get a degree in it. You get the idea.
3. Find other people that are also interested in it.
4. If possible, find a way to make money from it, or something related to it.
Most engineers I know, including me, followed something like this process. If you can make it to step 2, the rest is easier than you would think.
You have nothing to lose but your emo-ness.