Reality check?

[bengali]

i have no idea whats up with me..
i dont know what kindof phase im going through.. i used to be really quick and witty and i used to make good conversations and i was never at a loss for words.. i could have an opinion and defend it in a debate.. now, i cant even find words to explain what i mean.. is my vocabulary completely shot?, should i read more?.. i dont know what im going through..

its incredibly frustrating.. i do better in my studies, and worse socially.. i dont know whats going on.. its incredibly hard for me to articulate.. i cant even form a question.. i need to get out of this funk.. i'm stuck at home, my friends are all busy, i dont have a car, and i need a hobby.. this is really hurting my self confidence... im starting to feel nervous in front of people.. really self-concious.. i've never felt this way before and its really wierd...

oh, and i broke up with my boyfriend because he lied to me about attending school.. he lied to me about the college he went to, and his job.. so i dont know whats going on with me..

i know its kindof bloggish, but i really need to know some questions i can ask myself.. what is important to me? i dont know.. my mind is mush.. i need some priorities besides home life.. i cant even watch movies in peace.. i end up watching some old disney movies, not even law and order anymore.. everything makes me sad.. i think its some type of depression, bt i need a way out of it.. any suggestions?

this is really wierd.. im a totally different person.. and i dont like it at all.. i feel like i'm ashamed of myself and i have no clue why..

this feels like some high school shit, and i dont like it.. i know this seems really bloggish and its hard to read.. sorry, its whatever.. i explained, mind is mush.. stop complaining, thats my job.. i think i'm doing a pretty good job at it..

itd be great if some posters provided advice.. suggestions?, words of wisdom, good quotes?, erm.. anything really..

stop bitching about how i write.. as u can see, i already know its a problem..



posts that actually provide some type of help will be much appreciated.. thanks

 

[alfa147x]

 

[QED]

Seriously, ATOT would be the absolute LAST place I would to come to for a reality check.

 

[wart]

Sometimes when I go jogging with my iPod I fantasize I am playing the solos in all the songs and all the people in the crowd are cheering. Then when the song starts to end I walk off the stage and have hot groupie sex with 8 groupies in spandex.

 

[bengali]

thx i'll try that sometime ahha

 

[waffleironhead]

Holy shit that is unreadable!

A cookie for whoever actually wades thru that mess of shit

 

[Captante]

Paragraphs plz?


Oh and how old are you?

 

[Bill Brasky]

When I'm down I like to exercise and then go to the pool. It's so relaxing to lay in the sun. I don't know if you're old enough to drink, but getting a beer with some friends rounds out that day pretty nice imo.

 

[NikolaeVarius]

Sounds like you need a good bitch smack to the face.

Two, since the atrocious grammar is inexcusable

 

[ICRS]

How did he lie about the school he attended?

 

[HeroOfPellinor]

I vote you wait two more days and see how you feel then.

 

[nerp]

It's that time of year, and you're obviously stuck in a situation that you don't have full control over. Not being able to drive and living at home can feed into the negative feelings.

I do think reading some books and getting your mind off things will help. I was in your shoes once and the only way out of it was to just keep myself focused on heady things outside my reality. It made my reality a lot more interesting in the end. Eventually you might find a new friend who introduces you to new interests and people and you'll build a new circle around you and you'll look back to this time as a temporary growing period.

Maybe you just grew up a little? Sometimes it hurts realizing your previous confidence might have been more arrogance than anything. Being humbled by life can make you feel week and ineffective. Just keep trying to embrace these lessons and you'll be stronger in the end.

 

[DisgruntledVirus]

:tampon;

 

[darkxshade]

For a second, I thought I logged into myspace and I don't even have an account.

 

[rivan]

Originally posted by: DisgruntledVirus
:tampon;

:laugh:

 

[meltdown75]

do:

- exercise vigorously
- fap
- do stuff
- don't take life so seriously
- hang out with family
- get wasted
- go on a vacation

pretty much all of those things have the potential to make you feel better.

don't:

- have a pity party and think about how much your life blows

 

[SpunkyJones]

Originally posted by: QED
Seriously, ATOT would be the absolute LAST place I would to come to for a reality check.

X2

 

[Squisher]

Although I agree that you'll have to filter through a lot of chaff to get any kind of valuable advice by posting this on ATOT, I think you need to see someone whose area of expertise exceeds us here. There might be a metabolic reason or you just might need to refocus yourself. I think I'd start with your doctor.

 

[moshquerade]

this not what this forum has come to.
tell me it's not.

OP, don't you have a friend or two you could talk to?

 

[OdiN]

Originally posted by: meltdown75
do:

- exercise vigorously
- fap
- do stuff
- don't take life so seriously
- hang out with family
- get wasted
- go on a vacation

pretty much all of those things have the potential to make you feel better.

don't:

- have a pity party and think about how much your life blows

It would be paf.

Unless : pirate; (you know what I mean)

 

[Savij]

Originally posted by: meltdown75
do:

- exercise vigorously
- fap
- do stuff
- don't take life so seriously
- hang out with family
- get wasted
- go on a vacation

pretty much all of those things have the potential to make you feel better.

don't:

- have a pity party and think about how much your life blows

 

[KeithTalent]

An ellipsis has three periods, not two. Either that or a period only has one period, not two. Not sure what you were going for there.

KT

 

[wahoyaho]

Talk this over with ppl close to you or psychiatrist or counsellor or whatever

 

[WA261]

Originally posted by: DisgruntledVirus
:tampon;

 

[MaxDepth]

I think you need to start your own fight club.