For the past 4 to 6 weeks, I have been trying to get a minor (or heavier) grasp on Adobe Photoshop CS3 Extended. But the problem is I play Garry's mod and make poses within the mod as assets for my photoshop manipulation. In the beginning of my goal, I started to edit poses like crazy. After I posted some up on the internet, I see another guy who did a picture with almost the exact same posing as mine but looks 195% better looking. Plus he includes how long it took to make it; from the look of it, he takes 1/4th of the time I take to make a picture. This got to me and made me feel like shit, but I went past that bridge when I came to it. That wasn't the problem though, it was what lied ahead that made everything worse.
When I started some new methods of relaxation, I started to come to the realization that I have to somehow deal with living with my mother and brother under one roof. I can't stand them and their voices have become the sound of an annoying kid. They are stress magnets and pessimistic thinkers, I seem to be the only one within the house that sees things on the bright side. I made a solution to that problem but another problem took it's place; I started a new variety of things that would, theoretically, make my life better but it doesn't seem to be working. I see work as work, my brother and mother as extreme single minded thinkers, and have given up on making friends. I have enough problems as it is and now I am trying to heal a wound that likes tearing itself open, I feel like I'm beating a dead horse since a bad feeling comes to mind every time I'm bored or stressed. It's a cycle, it can be broken somehow but I haven't found the rout that leads the way out yet.
If you want to see what kind of pictures I do, here is a sample (img tags don't work with this site so it's all by link):
*There all the same pose, just different angles*
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1:http://img244.imageshack.us/im...ychirontl340001mh0.jpg
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2:http://img90.imageshack.us/img...ychirontl340004np2.jpg
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3:http://img137.imageshack.us/im...ychirontl340002mi1.jpg
If you want to see an edit I did, you won't be pleased I think. But if you want to take a gander, go right ahead:
http://img244.imageshack.us/im...rontl340001copyds1.jpg
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I also have been trying to do something with movies within Garry's mod. I made one that was 46 minutes long but that hurt everything. My school, my perception on things, my sleep, you name it. I used Sony Vegas 7 to mix it all up; if you want to see the movie, it is really sad that I can't. Since it's pretty lengthy, it's not going to go on youtube (Thats the only video uploading site I know).
Movies and Photoshop, both things of these are my personal goals to achieve on my personal time. I've seen people who are 16 or 17 and have mastered the programs of Java, Flashmedia, Sony Vegas Platinum 8.0, Photoshop, and ImageReady. I don't understand how these kids can do such a thing, it's like they're machines or something. I'm not used to having so much personal responsibility on my shoulders and I need alot of time to adjust (I think, school is hard enough as it is and my Asbergers Syndrome is slowing my thought process. From a test I did along with pal, it takes 2x as longer than the average person). It sounds like I'm in a crisis at the moment and you know what, your right I think, I am panicing for an unknown reason.
If I need to slow my pace down, I will feel like I will need to be doing something and if I don't change my goals, or my workload in achieving them goals, I will fall down a pit of unforeseeable depression (I think) caused by continous strikes against your brain. That would give one hell of a headache to deal with and I don't know if I have enough Tylenol to hold it off lol. I'm basically at a crossroads and am in a need of help. What do you guys think I should do?
When I started some new methods of relaxation, I started to come to the realization that I have to somehow deal with living with my mother and brother under one roof. I can't stand them and their voices have become the sound of an annoying kid. They are stress magnets and pessimistic thinkers, I seem to be the only one within the house that sees things on the bright side. I made a solution to that problem but another problem took it's place; I started a new variety of things that would, theoretically, make my life better but it doesn't seem to be working. I see work as work, my brother and mother as extreme single minded thinkers, and have given up on making friends. I have enough problems as it is and now I am trying to heal a wound that likes tearing itself open, I feel like I'm beating a dead horse since a bad feeling comes to mind every time I'm bored or stressed. It's a cycle, it can be broken somehow but I haven't found the rout that leads the way out yet.
If you want to see what kind of pictures I do, here is a sample (img tags don't work with this site so it's all by link):
*There all the same pose, just different angles*
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1:http://img244.imageshack.us/im...ychirontl340001mh0.jpg
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2:http://img90.imageshack.us/img...ychirontl340004np2.jpg
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3:http://img137.imageshack.us/im...ychirontl340002mi1.jpg
If you want to see an edit I did, you won't be pleased I think. But if you want to take a gander, go right ahead:
http://img244.imageshack.us/im...rontl340001copyds1.jpg
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I also have been trying to do something with movies within Garry's mod. I made one that was 46 minutes long but that hurt everything. My school, my perception on things, my sleep, you name it. I used Sony Vegas 7 to mix it all up; if you want to see the movie, it is really sad that I can't. Since it's pretty lengthy, it's not going to go on youtube (Thats the only video uploading site I know).
Movies and Photoshop, both things of these are my personal goals to achieve on my personal time. I've seen people who are 16 or 17 and have mastered the programs of Java, Flashmedia, Sony Vegas Platinum 8.0, Photoshop, and ImageReady. I don't understand how these kids can do such a thing, it's like they're machines or something. I'm not used to having so much personal responsibility on my shoulders and I need alot of time to adjust (I think, school is hard enough as it is and my Asbergers Syndrome is slowing my thought process. From a test I did along with pal, it takes 2x as longer than the average person). It sounds like I'm in a crisis at the moment and you know what, your right I think, I am panicing for an unknown reason.
If I need to slow my pace down, I will feel like I will need to be doing something and if I don't change my goals, or my workload in achieving them goals, I will fall down a pit of unforeseeable depression (I think) caused by continous strikes against your brain. That would give one hell of a headache to deal with and I don't know if I have enough Tylenol to hold it off lol. I'm basically at a crossroads and am in a need of help. What do you guys think I should do?