I 100% agree. I was in your position, falling leaf, tentatively trying toe edge, etc., until one run where I caught my edge, and slammed my face on the ground and opened up my chin. Ended it for the day, but the next day went to a different place on the mountain where the bunny slopes were and spent about 4 hours teaching myself transitions and carving. Now I can do it no problem. I just needed the confidence to know that I could do it. It just took a lot of blood for me to get there.
I just got in my new whip, a 2010 Sierra Crew 158cm with Burton Triad bindings. Haven't been able to test it out yet, but my first run will be at Steamboat Springs in 7 days. Can't fucking wait.
Good luck to you man, it's a shit ton of fun once you can link your turns and just go non-stop down the mountain.