- Dec 9, 2000
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Found one who is nationally and state certified to treat alcoholism but I can't help but wonder what she could possibly say/do to help me stop if waking up every morning feeling like shit and ruining my health isn't enough to stop me? I've read every article there is to read, bought a book to self-help and know what I'm doing to myself, but it isn't enough.
Here's hoping she has the magical answer. If anyone else has it, I'd be willing to listen.
EDIT: Updated for those interested. She basically gave me some platitudes that I already knew, but some new ones like "One drink is too many, a thousand is not enough" which really hit home.
She gave me a list of AA meetings in the area and I was shocked at how many there were. Tomorrow night (Saturday) at midnight they have a young people meeting that I'm going to attend just to see what it's like, even though I'm atheist. She said I can use whatever I want as my higher power. I mentioned to her that I've read medical literature that states that anti-depressants (that I use for anxiety) can cause increased alcohol cravings and she said she would help me with my anxiety without pills. So, without the pills, the alcohol cravings may go away, assuming she can control the anxiety. We'll see. $80 for 40 minutes is expensive but it's better than the $150 I'd spend a week on a nice Scotch.
EDIT: Updated #2 for those who care. I didn't attend any AA meetings because I can't get past the spirituality part. I saw the counselor a second time and she didn't help me with the pills, just offered more alcoholic support. I joined a group called SMART (self-management and recovery training?) and they have an online chat that they do daily that helps but i did a little experiment. i stopped taking my anti-depressants and i feel so much better, and the cravings have different "voices" and i don't get drunk anymore. tonight, a friend invited me to a bar and i've been drinking since 6 pm and i can still type, talk and socialize without any problems since i've been off the drugs. now i have a decision to make: either live life with anxiety and no drugs or live life without anxiety and alcoholism/depression? weird, isn't it? anti-depressants make me depressed and alcoholic but take away my anxiety.
such is life.
Here's hoping she has the magical answer. If anyone else has it, I'd be willing to listen.
EDIT: Updated for those interested. She basically gave me some platitudes that I already knew, but some new ones like "One drink is too many, a thousand is not enough" which really hit home.
She gave me a list of AA meetings in the area and I was shocked at how many there were. Tomorrow night (Saturday) at midnight they have a young people meeting that I'm going to attend just to see what it's like, even though I'm atheist. She said I can use whatever I want as my higher power. I mentioned to her that I've read medical literature that states that anti-depressants (that I use for anxiety) can cause increased alcohol cravings and she said she would help me with my anxiety without pills. So, without the pills, the alcohol cravings may go away, assuming she can control the anxiety. We'll see. $80 for 40 minutes is expensive but it's better than the $150 I'd spend a week on a nice Scotch.
EDIT: Updated #2 for those who care. I didn't attend any AA meetings because I can't get past the spirituality part. I saw the counselor a second time and she didn't help me with the pills, just offered more alcoholic support. I joined a group called SMART (self-management and recovery training?) and they have an online chat that they do daily that helps but i did a little experiment. i stopped taking my anti-depressants and i feel so much better, and the cravings have different "voices" and i don't get drunk anymore. tonight, a friend invited me to a bar and i've been drinking since 6 pm and i can still type, talk and socialize without any problems since i've been off the drugs. now i have a decision to make: either live life with anxiety and no drugs or live life without anxiety and alcoholism/depression? weird, isn't it? anti-depressants make me depressed and alcoholic but take away my anxiety.
such is life.