- Mar 11, 2006
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When it comes down to the beginning of the morning (1:00 A.M), I don't feel myself anymore. I feel a better person in me that wants to be free and roam around the town. I know it isn't a nightlife mood because I don't feel like partying when this occurs. I feel like I'm in Rome or in Ireland, I feel great and free but in real life I am contained in a room with a computer that takes every minute of my free time away from me. I can leave my room if I want but being contained in the house due to curfew sucks. I'm thinking about breaking the law and going out for a bike ride around town but if my mother knew, I would be destroyed with insults. Spirituality is a big part of me, it is my feelings and it is my view on life (when I say that spirituality is my view on life, I am determining how I view the world in my surrounding environment and not the whole world at once as a whole 'confused?').
I don't care to admit it, I am sixteen (16 and three-quarters actually, my birthday is the eighth, 8) and summer looks like a big opportunity to get things done. My spirituality is telling me that I should do as many productive things during this massive amount of free time so that when the working world (AKA School and other responsibilities) arrives at my door step, I will be more than prepared to do the job. Then again, I think about it even more, why should I work so hard so that work can get easier? I ask myself if I am a wanna-be workaholic or just someone who wants to do something. I see the computer as a big waste of time and a time consumer; I want to live the fantasy that lives within my soul, roam free without a care.
I know this kind of talk is somewhat ridiculous but it is what I want to do; curfew sucks and satisfying my own want against the law could make things bump for me down the road. I also want to complete my Chronicles of Narina book so that can get out of the way. I want to get a little better with my fluency on guitar and Bass, both things I want too learn. Then I want to memorize 5 different long and difficult things to remember to further enhance my storage of information so when it comes to school and studying, it will be a bit easier. I have to do all of this before labor day, quite a challenge indeed, but I can prevail with commitment and dedication. I could get it all done in the nick of time if I wanted to but I am only human (life gets in the way and screws with all of your plans). I want to reach a goal that a super human being could reach (or just a gifted person with a brain) while I am a person who is somewhat mental disabled. I know I am not normal, I can't make a question look right or a statement look correct (or understandable). I can nothing about it; I try learning from my English teacher but that only helped me do speeches and not my average talking among fellow strangers such as yourselfs. I would appreciate it if you don't flame me for my grammar or sentence structure, I try remembering honestly (if you guys even ask me that annoying question, yes I am American).
A spirit to guide my way, a spirit to drive my dreams, a spirit to guide me to my destiny that I so desire, that is how signicant a spirit is to me ladies an gentlemen. I thank spirituality and the wind for guiding my dreams closer. I know that without the make believe support of both of those entities, I would of never gotten to where I am now in self betterment. I am much smarter now, I am a great analist, and I am a better person who sees that opportunities really do exist (When I was a wreck, I thought I was god's clown. A person who had all the bad things happening to him without a reason or a purpose behind the wrong doings). Has a spirit changed your life around ever?
I don't care to admit it, I am sixteen (16 and three-quarters actually, my birthday is the eighth, 8) and summer looks like a big opportunity to get things done. My spirituality is telling me that I should do as many productive things during this massive amount of free time so that when the working world (AKA School and other responsibilities) arrives at my door step, I will be more than prepared to do the job. Then again, I think about it even more, why should I work so hard so that work can get easier? I ask myself if I am a wanna-be workaholic or just someone who wants to do something. I see the computer as a big waste of time and a time consumer; I want to live the fantasy that lives within my soul, roam free without a care.
I know this kind of talk is somewhat ridiculous but it is what I want to do; curfew sucks and satisfying my own want against the law could make things bump for me down the road. I also want to complete my Chronicles of Narina book so that can get out of the way. I want to get a little better with my fluency on guitar and Bass, both things I want too learn. Then I want to memorize 5 different long and difficult things to remember to further enhance my storage of information so when it comes to school and studying, it will be a bit easier. I have to do all of this before labor day, quite a challenge indeed, but I can prevail with commitment and dedication. I could get it all done in the nick of time if I wanted to but I am only human (life gets in the way and screws with all of your plans). I want to reach a goal that a super human being could reach (or just a gifted person with a brain) while I am a person who is somewhat mental disabled. I know I am not normal, I can't make a question look right or a statement look correct (or understandable). I can nothing about it; I try learning from my English teacher but that only helped me do speeches and not my average talking among fellow strangers such as yourselfs. I would appreciate it if you don't flame me for my grammar or sentence structure, I try remembering honestly (if you guys even ask me that annoying question, yes I am American).
A spirit to guide my way, a spirit to drive my dreams, a spirit to guide me to my destiny that I so desire, that is how signicant a spirit is to me ladies an gentlemen. I thank spirituality and the wind for guiding my dreams closer. I know that without the make believe support of both of those entities, I would of never gotten to where I am now in self betterment. I am much smarter now, I am a great analist, and I am a better person who sees that opportunities really do exist (When I was a wreck, I thought I was god's clown. A person who had all the bad things happening to him without a reason or a purpose behind the wrong doings). Has a spirit changed your life around ever?