Well I just couldn't stop thinking about it so basically I wrote her-no fronting no faking. Told her just that I'm not great and that just trying to move on. Told her to take care.
I understand she's just young and immature. I don't want to bash her to make her feel worse. I don't want to "try to get back together". I don't want to be a d!ck. Being real and honest is usually the best course. Now I'll just go back to trying to move along in life.
I know there are other fish in the sea. I know that I'll be fine in time. I also have a great deal of respect for her, not for what she did to me or who she is now, but for what we shared together. I don't want to tarnish those memories and respect by lying now or making things up.
She's being selfish and acting like an immature b*tch. But she is a sweet girl who meant a whole lot to me. We had a very great relationship. I deserve it to myself to maintain that dignity and sanctity of what we had even if its hard now and doens't make me "seem" to her like I'm great even if i'm not.
Thanks to all who lent support. Ignoring the text was probably the smartest thing to do, but I just couldn't. I think anyone who's really been in love and hurt understands the process of moving on and that sometimes its impossible to do the best thing. My goal is just not to do something dumb. (like 'getting under someone to get over someone') I want to be a GOOD person and be healthy. Self destructive behavior, destroying the good memories, lessening the experiences we had...those aren't good in the long run. (though i do resort to unhealthy nights of drinking alone! lol....not good i know, but you do what you gotta do)