she doesnt even believe in it anymore.
In life we sometimes find ourselves at such moments of despair and sadness that the only solution readily available is to wallow in one's own misery and bitterness. Ah bitterness, my only true friend. To hold you in my arms, to cradle you, to love your company and to know that no matter what, you will always be there for me. Sometimes, that's really all we think we have when our "friends" desert us and when we think that we are the unluckiest people on the planet. But what good is that? Ah, I hold my bitterness with such despair that bitterness to deserts me. What is left after bitterness then? Meaningless, meaningless, all is meaningless.
At the end of it all, we realize that if we give up that belief in the impossible, if we let go of heaven and lose all faith in ourselves and in our fellow human beings, we become those base monstrosities we ourselves fear.
My dear, let go of the pain, I realize that I am asking the impossible and that bitterness really can provide some comfort but to lose faith in the goodness of other people, of their worth and of the contributions they make to countless lives is to lose a part of oneself that is very difficult to regain. Call me a hopeless optimist, but I've also "been there and done that" and at the end of it all, there really is nothing left but love.
You claim that you have lost all belief in love and I claim that there is nothing but love. Reach for heaven, you never know when you might actually grab it. But make sure you have a good grip
Cheers !