Ok, time to necro this thread.
I was laid off Friday feb 5th. I am collecting unemployment to cover the bills while I try to figure out what I'm doing with myself. From a holistic perspective, it drains my health a lot. So I have spent the past month or so trying to balance things out and not be depressed. I have slipped a lot on the diet and exercise front but just got back on it this week.
It never rains but it pours.
The week before I was laid off a mutual friend who works with my ex was fired and came to me as a friend to compare notes against my ex and how she played us off against each other. They were kind of girlfriends so it didn't bug me so much that personal details of my life were shared, but what pisses me off is she just made shit up about me. When I broke up with my ex I didn't drink, and later when I went through some crap I didn't drink. But at this point I felt like drinking, so my friend and I hit the bars and has some Irish therapy. I even took Monday off to recover and cope with this, saw a therapist. Then I was laid off friday and since everyone loves me at the bars and was sympathetic that I was laid off I kept drinking. I think I had 4 nights of binge drinking. I overdid the Irish therapy.
On super bowl sunday I was back to drinking soda as it metabolizes like alcohol and I was trying to let myself down slowly. My body had been so clean for so long I was good and fucked up. 2 vanilla cokes were doing me in. I sat on my friend's couch in a half conscious state. I only piped up when the commercial for Roundup came on and I did not hesitate to go "fuck roundup! fuck Monsanto!" and everyone in the room was like whoa, where did you come from? And I then explained monsanto and their GMO soy BS.
Post drinking I had some bad physical anxiety. My traps and neck were a knot. I tried to find a massage therapist to help me work this out but can't that day but do get a hold of my holistic chiro and he works wonders on me.
I've mentioned my holistic chiro here before. He was more than worth the 45 bucks for this one visit. My brain was in a fog for 3 days after the super bowl. He finds a pressure point in my heel and instantly I feel energy, like electricity flow up my spine into my brain and wake me up. He determines I need a "total reset" and my kidneys, liver and spleen were blocked, but not the gall bladder. Anyways he does some more stuff including putting this thing in my right ear where it hurts the most. But when he was done, I stood up and all the anxiety was drained from my body. Completely. It was amazing.
So that was a good reminder to not drink and to avoid the sugar.
I also had to deal with my ex who came back asking me for rides because she has no friends. I gave her one ride to tell her off, since she was just using me and not being my friend. So I had to deal with that too. But I felt really good telling her off, I knew she was just a drain, I knew I was right, and it went really well. I had been laid off for 2 weeks and she didn't even ask how I was doing, so I'm not going to allow her to use me when I have problems of my own. Summary of how nuts my ex is: she just married a guy she met in an online game, and has maybe been with him physically 4 times. The guy is recently divorced, has 2 kids and she hates kids. She is totally manipulating him like she did me and she will fail. She is 28 like me and this is her second marriage. She is really smart, I thought she would have been smart enough to not get married again so whimsically. But I think she is just gold-digging him. Anyways, not my problem.
The next month I was just battling the depression of not having a job, which really sucks. I am a superb programmer but I need to figure out what is good for me. I am so enthused about health that I might part-time start giving presentations and talks for people, like burned out programmers, on how to manage stress and health. Since I've learned so much the hard way.
I eat a lot of carbs but try to avoid gluten. I mainly did sugar and junk foods for comfort, which I know is bad. As of a couple days ago, I had some angel hair pasta, not much but enough to keep me from pooping for over a day. So that is the last test I need, I am avoiding gluten like the plague.
I have one job prospect that appeals to me as it is a 3 month contract, which would give me time to figure out my whole career direction. We'll see how that goes. I am a kick-ass programmer but I need to find a job that is good for me, and this might be.
Ah and before I got laid off I did get a new plan from my trainer but then didn't do it.
So since it has been a while I am staring off with my last plan until I feel built up again to do more serious lifting. I haven't even touched the new plan yet.