Why you unhappay?
I'm unhappy because my academic performance has plummeted since I moved to Seattle. This is mostly because I left any friends that I had back in Portland. The worst part of it is that some of them left Portland after I moved to Seattle too. So, I couldn't even go down there to visit them, because they were in some far off place. As well, friendships overall have declined because the distance between us has made it harder to do shit. We can talk, but not going out kind of restricts things. I got my CSE department decision. (For the second time) Rejected, of course. Both me and my adviser knew it because I was having such a hard time. School isn't hard. The classes were a joke. I just didn't ever go to the classes, or I didn't do this or that. Or maybe when a test came around, I was suffering from severe insomnia. (You know, that 2 hours a week kind of shit) So, my test performance went to hell. Since my grade is mostly determined by my test performance and not my overall knowledge of the material, it didn't work out so well. I could get a 3.8 in linear algebra, but as soon as I did diff-eq I fucked up on one test and lost 10%+ of my grade. (Forgot how to do one thing in the heat of the moment. It was so simple.) Of course, that drops your GPA like a fucking atom bomb. But hey, school is my last priority in the life. So is the career. All that shit is miniscule in comparison to what really drags me down to the piranha.
I keep seeing these girls, maybe kissing them, and then getting upset because I'm still not interested in them. They turn out to be boring, not funny, and braggarts. It's annoying because I keep trying to want these girls but I don't. They think I'm entertaining or funny or some bullshit like that, but they're never what I want. I keep having to entertain these girls, but they never entertain me. I'm always the one doing the work and trying to make it work. Rarely I feel I am the one being interacted with. Instead, I have to do careful conversation with these people in the pursuits of setting them up so I can laugh at something I basically made them say. I do it so that it seems as if I actually enjoy their pathetic company.
I'm tired of this, and I want to get out of here. The only problem with this situation is that my GPA overall has gone the ways of Juliet. So, naturally, UCLA/UCSD would automatically reject me. My accumulate is still OK, but it's a pathetic record overall. There's no sympathy for my situation, and that's only because people cannot relate to what I live.
So, tell me all about your misery; your horrible children, debt, spouse, and/or career problems.
I'm unhappy because my academic performance has plummeted since I moved to Seattle. This is mostly because I left any friends that I had back in Portland. The worst part of it is that some of them left Portland after I moved to Seattle too. So, I couldn't even go down there to visit them, because they were in some far off place. As well, friendships overall have declined because the distance between us has made it harder to do shit. We can talk, but not going out kind of restricts things. I got my CSE department decision. (For the second time) Rejected, of course. Both me and my adviser knew it because I was having such a hard time. School isn't hard. The classes were a joke. I just didn't ever go to the classes, or I didn't do this or that. Or maybe when a test came around, I was suffering from severe insomnia. (You know, that 2 hours a week kind of shit) So, my test performance went to hell. Since my grade is mostly determined by my test performance and not my overall knowledge of the material, it didn't work out so well. I could get a 3.8 in linear algebra, but as soon as I did diff-eq I fucked up on one test and lost 10%+ of my grade. (Forgot how to do one thing in the heat of the moment. It was so simple.) Of course, that drops your GPA like a fucking atom bomb. But hey, school is my last priority in the life. So is the career. All that shit is miniscule in comparison to what really drags me down to the piranha.
I keep seeing these girls, maybe kissing them, and then getting upset because I'm still not interested in them. They turn out to be boring, not funny, and braggarts. It's annoying because I keep trying to want these girls but I don't. They think I'm entertaining or funny or some bullshit like that, but they're never what I want. I keep having to entertain these girls, but they never entertain me. I'm always the one doing the work and trying to make it work. Rarely I feel I am the one being interacted with. Instead, I have to do careful conversation with these people in the pursuits of setting them up so I can laugh at something I basically made them say. I do it so that it seems as if I actually enjoy their pathetic company.
I'm tired of this, and I want to get out of here. The only problem with this situation is that my GPA overall has gone the ways of Juliet. So, naturally, UCLA/UCSD would automatically reject me. My accumulate is still OK, but it's a pathetic record overall. There's no sympathy for my situation, and that's only because people cannot relate to what I live.
So, tell me all about your misery; your horrible children, debt, spouse, and/or career problems.