The worst thing I've ever done, or rather happened to me, was an unfortunate reaction to prescription antidepressants called antidepressant induced mania (which happens to me if I take any SSRIs by themselves(they get me high)), the most severe of which occurred in 2011.
The damn pills made me completely euphoric and also unfortunately psychotic.
Among other things, I went on a spending spree buying an expensive guitar, an amp, and a pedal board which I later sold when I came back to my senses; sent psychotic Facebook "letters" to my abusive psychopathic father about what a misunderstood genius he was, left college thinking I was going to make an album instead (I'm a decent guitar player but nowhere near that level) and I was totally grandiose and out of my mind (which you could clearly see in my behaviour and my writing).
It haunts me to this day, and sometimes hurts because I'm still suffering the consequences.
It was so horribly embarrassing, I have no words to describe it. Pretty much like walking naked on the streets. I feel embarrassed even talking about it.
Unless you experience it (and trust me you don't want to, because when you're IN it, it feels great, but once it subsides, you feel destroyed by what you just did) you won't really understand it. :'(
I'm very careful with such prescription drugs now.
The damn pills made me completely euphoric and also unfortunately psychotic.
Among other things, I went on a spending spree buying an expensive guitar, an amp, and a pedal board which I later sold when I came back to my senses; sent psychotic Facebook "letters" to my abusive psychopathic father about what a misunderstood genius he was, left college thinking I was going to make an album instead (I'm a decent guitar player but nowhere near that level) and I was totally grandiose and out of my mind (which you could clearly see in my behaviour and my writing).
It haunts me to this day, and sometimes hurts because I'm still suffering the consequences.
It was so horribly embarrassing, I have no words to describe it. Pretty much like walking naked on the streets. I feel embarrassed even talking about it.
Unless you experience it (and trust me you don't want to, because when you're IN it, it feels great, but once it subsides, you feel destroyed by what you just did) you won't really understand it. :'(
I'm very careful with such prescription drugs now.
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