About 3 months ago, I think I was happy. Living on my own, busy with work, and trying to make it on my own in a new city. I liked the fact that I was motivated to be proactive with my life and try to be out there all the time.
my dad calls me after getting fired from his job saying he wants to move in with me. I didn't know many people in this city so we talked about it and he said he will find a job to pay for the full rent. I thought okay fine, I will be able to save more money. I didn't like the fact that I would be living with my dad as a college grad but saving money sounded good.
We found a place together that was within our budget but twice the rent that I was paying before. To make a long story short, he moved up, stayed unemployed for nearly 2 months due to the economy and currently work a crappy job that barely covers anything. I blew all of my savings to make the rent each month and the security deposit to make this work. All these bills that come in my name and I have not been able to save a penny. My credit card debt just goes higher and higher. He works M-F but it pisses me off to see him in front of the TV all the time and not really caring because he feels no urgency. I'm in danger of losing my job as my company goes through a wave of layoffs starting next week and I feel like I'm starting to just give up on everything. Up to this point, I had a sense of control and once I lost that grip, I just feel unmotivated now.
this is just scratching the surface of how I feel. I just don't feel like doing anything anymore. Work and I go to church. I wanted to meet a girlfriend in this city, make some friends, and build a social life but I gave up on all of that. I just don't care. I used to go to the gym daily, but now I go once a week at most. I stay home on the internet and just let time pass. Is this a phase that will pass? I certainly hope so
my dad calls me after getting fired from his job saying he wants to move in with me. I didn't know many people in this city so we talked about it and he said he will find a job to pay for the full rent. I thought okay fine, I will be able to save more money. I didn't like the fact that I would be living with my dad as a college grad but saving money sounded good.
We found a place together that was within our budget but twice the rent that I was paying before. To make a long story short, he moved up, stayed unemployed for nearly 2 months due to the economy and currently work a crappy job that barely covers anything. I blew all of my savings to make the rent each month and the security deposit to make this work. All these bills that come in my name and I have not been able to save a penny. My credit card debt just goes higher and higher. He works M-F but it pisses me off to see him in front of the TV all the time and not really caring because he feels no urgency. I'm in danger of losing my job as my company goes through a wave of layoffs starting next week and I feel like I'm starting to just give up on everything. Up to this point, I had a sense of control and once I lost that grip, I just feel unmotivated now.
this is just scratching the surface of how I feel. I just don't feel like doing anything anymore. Work and I go to church. I wanted to meet a girlfriend in this city, make some friends, and build a social life but I gave up on all of that. I just don't care. I used to go to the gym daily, but now I go once a week at most. I stay home on the internet and just let time pass. Is this a phase that will pass? I certainly hope so