MrDaniel,
Thank you for sharing and updating your story. I'm glad to see the courts uphold citizens' rights to defend themselves with lethal force.
There is one thing I wanted to ask though. It's ok if you don't want to answer as well. I'll understand. How did you feel when you found out that the guy died as a result of his injuries? I am working towards getting my CCW license in Texas. I pray that I won't ever be in a situation where I will have to use it, but I want to be prepared if it is necessary. I understand fully and agree with your choice to use lethal force to stop your attacker given the circumstances. I was just looking for insight into your emotional state after the incident.
i felt that i wouldn't be done fighting for my life for a very long time. i wasn't. i immediately felt distrustful, threatened, by both the police and my memory. a part of me i never knew woke up, giving me focus and insight. a part of me i normally wouldn't draw upon for more than a question at a time. at the same time, i felt an emptiness, a discomfort at the lack of lightning bolts to dodge as they surly(had to be certain even if i wasn't, and i wasn't. important details seemed too slippery to fully recall or vocalize(i had been knocked around a bit)) had no business with me. i figured they must be metaphorical and all around me, poised to strike at the slightest misstep of memory or wording.
i honesly didn't remember ever saying "get away just get away from me" until i had read it from the reports the police made after interviewing witnesses. i didn't remember the bodahl quote, "my dad is a politician, go ahead and shoot you'll go to jail for the rest of your life," until well after the trial. i still don't remember the witness's quote of bodahl saying, "i don't care about the cops i'm going to kick your ass" it was likely a paraphrase or less inflammatory version of the dad quote.
my advice, don't speak to the cops at all. wait till you've read the witness reports. even then you're lawyer will tell you not to talk to them at all and not even testify at your trial. it was a ridiculously wise decision i made. cops aren't looking for justice, that's someone else's department, they're only interested in stats.