Worst nightmare of my life

[Leros]

No cliffs. I don't care if you read it or not. In fact, I think I'd prefer you don't.

This wasn't just a normal nightmare. This involved all sorts of things about my childhood, my recently deceased mother, and other things. It really bothered me.

I woke up and tried calling my girlfriend, but she didn't answer (It was 2.30am or so). So I wrote this as a way of calming myself down. I figured I would share since I already wrote it. If anybody cares or responds, thats just a bonus.

Most disturbing nightmare of my life. As I start to write this, I am crying.

Not really crying though. I?m not strong enough to fully cry when I?m alone.

There was a thread on Anandtech about whether or not you appreciate your parents. I posted saying that I had neglected both of my parents, but that my mother had died before I realized it and got a chance to really appreciate her.

Tonight, soon after going to bed. I was hit by a series of nightmares. After a few of them, I realized they were nightmares and started acting accordingly. I thought about how to prove to myself they were nightmares so that I could escape them, but by the end the terror got to me and I started freaking out. I was freaking out in my dreams, screaming and shouting, not in real life.

I don?t really remember anything but the last few dreams. One of the earlier ones involved me on a motorcycle in a dark area being followed by another man on a motorcycle. I think the area was similar to where I grew up during most of my childhood. Another earlier dream was my driving into a really rough alley, I was trying to get away from something. I don?t remember what though.

The third to last dream involved me waking up and hearing a knocking on my door. Then I heard my dad?s voice. By this time, I knew I was having a nightmare. I cautiously opened the door and I?m not sure what happened, but I ended up freaking out and hitting my dad trying to wake up from the nightmare.

The second to last dream again involved my dad. I?m not sure where we were. Some house with a brick fireplace. Might have been the house we lived in when I was really young. Not sure. My instincts during the nightmare told me the house was a place my dad lived before I even existed, when my dad was in his early 20s (a house/apt I would know nothing about). Anyways. My dad (the older current version) was sitting on the ground and, once again, I?m not sure what happened but I ended up attacking him as well.

I think I partially woke up after both of those dreams, but the waking up might have been inside a large enclosing nightmare. Not sure I really woke up.

The last dream is the most disturbing. I have no idea where I was, but I remember exactly what happened. I saw my mother (who died a few months ago). She was approaching me. I started to push her away. I punched her in the head. I kicked her. Anything to keep her away from me. (remember, I knew this was a nightmare, so I knew no harm was being done). After a few tries and getting nowhere, I decided that maybe this was my chance to make up with her. Even though it was a dream and not real, I could still get some kind of emotional recovery from this. So instead of fighting with her, I reached out to hug her. I was above her, so I was just going to be able to hug her shoulders and her head. When I hugged her, [my memory gets fuzzy here] something threw me off and I knew this wasn?t a peaceful situation. I realized I was hugging a rotting corpse. This freaked the crap out of me and in my dream I was screaming and acting insane. I started fighting her off again. Then I woke up.

Its 3am right now and I?ve had 30 minutes of sleep tonight, probably most of which was spent having these nightmares. This writing is probably terrible. I can barely read it without my contacts in.

Writing this made me feel a lot better. I don?t know why. I?ve never done anything like this before. Maybe it was just a way of dealing with my emotions alone. I still don't want to go back to sleep, but I know I need to.

 

[LEDominator]

Thats pretty twisted. Although Ebenezer Scrooge would be proud

 

[DrumminBoy]

weird, I just saw your post in that thread a few minutes ago. dreams can be very perplexing - perhaps that thread put the thoughts in your subconscious right before you went to sleep. hope it gets better for you

 

[I Saw OJ]

That last part reminds me of The Shining where Jack was kissing that naked lady from the bath tub, then he looks in the mirror and its really some rotting corpse thing.

 

[mooglemania85]

THE POWER OF CHRIST COMPELS YOU!
THE POWER OF CHRIST COMPELS YOU!
THE POWER OF CHRIST COMPELS YOU!

 

[Captante]

The only thing missing from that last part is Freddy Kruger!

 

[Colt45]

I live a nightmare. Don't worry about it. Have a drink.

 

[Auric]

Next time, rebuke the spectres with a curt: "There's more of gravy than of grave about you!".

 

[Fingolfin269]

I just want to know how to dream like this but maybe with less horror...

 

[Auric]

Originally posted by: Fingolfin269
I just want to know how to dream like this but maybe with less horror...

V-Chip implant.

 

[Mr Pickles]

In fact, I think I'd prefer you don't.

I think you are lying. Mainly because you posted this on an extremely popular off topic forum full of hundreds of people that come here to read posts.

 

[m1ldslide1]

Originally posted by: MrLee

In fact, I think I'd prefer you don't.

I think you are lying. Mainly because you posted this on an extremely popular off topic forum full of hundreds of people that come here to read posts.

I bet he knows where pickles come from though.

 

[pclstyle]

SHROOMS R BAD

 

[OutHouse]

my nightmare last night was my neighborhood was being attacked by orangutans. i called 911 and the dispatcher on the other end said to call back when i was in the hosptial. WTF!!!! im calling you now so i dont end up in the hospital.!!! :|

 

[Leros]

Originally posted by: MrLee

In fact, I think I'd prefer you don't.

I think you are lying. Mainly because you posted this on an extremely popular off topic forum full of hundreds of people that come here to read posts.

No. I've actually been very tempted to remove my original post and try to hide this thread as much as possible. I don't like to open up to people, especially strangers online.

 

[Damn Dirty Ape]

I had many dreams of these kind during the first year after my Dad passed. I wish I could tell you something to help, I really do. Only thing is time and possibly someone trained to help you work through your regrets may help.

Only someone who has had something like these dreams can really understand how terrifying they can be. They can ruin the whole next day sometimes.



/still have one every couple of months. still very unsettling and its been 4 years. Unexpected death made it worse for me.

 

[maxster]

Originally posted by: Leros
No cliffs. I don't care if you read it or not. In fact, I think I'd prefer you don't.

This wasn't just a normal nightmare. This involved all sorts of things about my childhood, my recently deceased mother, and other things. It really bothered me.

I woke up and tried calling my girlfriend, but she didn't answer (It was 2.30am or so). So I wrote this as a way of calming myself down. I figured I would share since I already wrote it. If anybody cares or responds, thats just a bonus.

Most disturbing nightmare of my life. As I start to write this, I am crying.

Not really crying though. I?m not strong enough to fully cry when I?m alone.

There was a thread on Anandtech about whether or not you appreciate your parents. I posted saying that I had neglected both of my parents, but that my mother had died before I realized it and got a chance to really appreciate her.

Tonight, soon after going to bed. I was hit by a series of nightmares. After a few of them, I realized they were nightmares and started acting accordingly. I thought about how to prove to myself they were nightmares so that I could escape them, but by the end the terror got to me and I started freaking out. I was freaking out in my dreams, screaming and shouting, not in real life.

I don?t really remember anything but the last few dreams. One of the earlier ones involved me on a motorcycle in a dark area being followed by another man on a motorcycle. I think the area was similar to where I grew up during most of my childhood. Another earlier dream was my driving into a really rough alley, I was trying to get away from something. I don?t remember what though.

The third to last dream involved me waking up and hearing a knocking on my door. Then I heard my dad?s voice. By this time, I knew I was having a nightmare. I cautiously opened the door and I?m not sure what happened, but I ended up freaking out and hitting my dad trying to wake up from the nightmare.

The second to last dream again involved my dad. I?m not sure where we were. Some house with a brick fireplace. Might have been the house we lived in when I was really young. Not sure. My instincts during the nightmare told me the house was a place my dad lived before I even existed, when my dad was in his early 20s (a house/apt I would know nothing about). Anyways. My dad (the older current version) was sitting on the ground and, once again, I?m not sure what happened but I ended up attacking him as well.

I think I partially woke up after both of those dreams, but the waking up might have been inside a large enclosing nightmare. Not sure I really woke up.

The last dream is the most disturbing. I have no idea where I was, but I remember exactly what happened. I saw my mother (who died a few months ago). She was approaching me. I started to push her away. I punched her in the head. I kicked her. Anything to keep her away from me. (remember, I knew this was a nightmare, so I knew no harm was being done). After a few tries and getting nowhere, I decided that maybe this was my chance to make up with her. Even though it was a dream and not real, I could still get some kind of emotional recovery from this. So instead of fighting with her, I reached out to hug her. I was above her, so I was just going to be able to hug her shoulders and her head. When I hugged her, [my memory gets fuzzy here] something threw me off and I knew this wasn?t a peaceful situation. I realized I was hugging a rotting corpse. This freaked the crap out of me and in my dream I was screaming and acting insane. I started fighting her off again. Then I woke up.

Its 3am right now and I?ve had 30 minutes of sleep tonight, probably most of which was spent having these nightmares. This writing is probably terrible. I can barely read it without my contacts in.

Writing this made me feel a lot better. I don?t know why. I?ve never done anything like this before. Maybe it was just a way of dealing with my emotions alone. I still don't want to go back to sleep, but I know I need to.

Owned.

 

[Mr Pickles]

Originally posted by: m1ldslide1

Originally posted by: MrLee

In fact, I think I'd prefer you don't.

I think you are lying. Mainly because you posted this on an extremely popular off topic forum full of hundreds of people that come here to read posts.

I bet he knows where pickles come from though.

Quiet you!

 

[Leros]

Originally posted by: Damn Dirty Ape
I had many dreams of these kind during the first year after my Dad passed. I wish I could tell you something to help, I really do. Only thing is time and possibly someone trained to help you work through your regrets may help.

Only someone who has had something like these dreams can really understand how terrifying they can be. They can ruin the whole next day sometimes.



/still have one every couple of months. still very unsettling and its been 4 years. Unexpected death made it worse for me.

Yeah. My mom's death was very unexpected. She had cancer and was, at worse case, expected to live at least 2 years. We were told to expect 5-10 years considering the treatment she was on. Two weeks later she died in the middle of the night. She was throwing up and her weakened body couldn't handle the stress.

 

[manowar821]

Originally posted by: pclstyle
SHROOMS R GOOD

Fixed lulz